Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD! -Psalm 27:14 (ESV)
Sounds easy enough, right?
Wait for the Lord to heal a loved one of cancer? Wait for the Lord to bring us peace after the death of a loved one? Wait for the Lord to take the heroin addiction away from a brother?
We want it now. Actually, we want it yesterday. How impatient some of us are as we wait it line at the grocery store. We watch the items of the person in front of us being scanned, and we impatiently lean on our cart as we think to ourselves, “Come on…how long could this possibly take?” We wait in traffic. We wait for our food at a restaurant, and talk about how hungry we are the entire time, and how long the order is taking.
Do we ever stop to think about the other side of things? Do we think about how the other person is feeling about being at the grocery with a hundred items, and how long it took them to gather all of those things, put them in their cart, wait in line, and finally reach the check-out? Do we see the other guy waiting in traffic as he thinks about getting to his dying mother in hospice? Do we think about how hard the cooks are working to prepare the orders for a building full of grouchy hungry people, as they wait for their busy shift to end?
We are selfish, rude and impatient. We put ourselves first and want the world to cater to our every need. Some of us have a greater tolerance for the wait. Some have more humility or empathy than the next. Some of us are very patient, and wait like a boss!
We are all different. We are all pressured by life. Our conditions, genetics, practices and experiences all play a part in our tolerance within the waiting game. But, back to ‘waiting on the Lord.’
So we see the world and do what we will when it comes to waiting for something. But the serious waiting; the things that cut deeply into our being. The recovery of grief, the unanswered prayers to the removal of cancer, or the drug addiction that is killing someone’s brother, as well as his whole family. How do we WAIT as we cry out to the Lord through our personal prayer and meditation, as nothing changes?
We remain in Him. We walk by faith. We trust in His timing. We keep praying. We keep meditating on His Word.
I sit and ponder just how powerful our Lord is on a clear night. How the stars are held in a place within an infinite universe. How the world is hurled around our sun by a gravitational pull. How the moon just follows us around; suspended in existence. It may be a poor example, and science could perhaps explain my examples, but these things are just reminders of how powerful our Lord is. Can we create such wonder? Can we hold these things within a place of emptiness, as if they are held up by invisible supports connected to nothingness?
8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. 9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. -Isaiah 55:8-9 (ESV)
As we look out at this world of infinite wonder, we see a Creator, perfect in His creations. The master of all things. We have faith in what He is, what He has done and what He will bring.
I believe it is fair to say that we all struggle to understand why things happen the way they do in this life. Why we have to go through the many struggles within life and within ourselves, as we wait. But we must remember how powerless we truly are apart from Him, without Christ. My personal experience has been a lifetime of waiting. I would wait on joy. I would wait to find love. Waiting on a place to run to that would provide a shelter from the cruel world. Waiting to find the answer to my ‘why?’ Waiting for the wounds to heal.
It was a longing to know what my personal new-age belief experience actually consisted of. I was at an all-time low around 2009-2010. I could not move on from the loss of my good friend, and I was back to living with my mother. My substance abuse was running a great portion of my life, and mixing these things with my prescribed medications was making me an even bigger mess. A woman I know handed me a program that consisted of a series of compact discs. The new-age guru on these discs explained how to be in balance with self, and with the universe. It was helpful, and I really enjoyed my time as I moved into a better state within. Shortly after moving through several more of these “programs,” I began to reject some of the things that the teacher was conveying. To me, there had to be a God outside of the inner-self source that he was speaking of. There had to be a creator of those wonders that I observe within the vastness of the evening sky. I could not believe that the universe created itself, or that the complexity of our DNA and overall designs of our bodies somehow just ‘evolved’ from nothingness.
I was on a quest to find truth when I had learned what God truly was.
We can dig through all of the thousands of years of beliefs, or pull one out of a hat, and set our eyes on something that fulfills our need for comfort and refuge. Something to run to when we have exhausted our options. But honestly, after reading the gospels, especially the gospel of John, I was convinced that the God of the universe was made flesh, and dwelt among us. That Jesus is the only way.
Today, the waiting is not as difficult as it once was. My growth in His wisdom and guidance grows each day. I place my faith in the Creator of all of these wonders. I asked myself, “Is there anything that He cannot do?” His display of power is within the heavens. Within the earth. Within the beauty of our unfathomably detailed life forms, and in the hearts of His seekers.
It takes time for things to happen, so in the meantime, why not lean on the One who knows our struggle, and knows just what He is doing. As bad as things hurt, they always hurt much worse without someone to lean on. So why wouldn’t we lean on the One who decided to create you?