As a man thinks, so is he.
I heard this many years ago, far before learning of its context, and I am not, in any way, saying or using this to promote the power of attraction. I am not using this in the context as the Proverb does. It’s just a statement, relative to what I am writing this morning.
There has been so many thoughts going through my mind recently. Many of them are very painful. The many thoughts of my parents: the good, the bad, the ongoing, as well as the questions with no answers, have truly taken their place within my thoughts throughout the last several months.
Since my father passed in January, and since the hiatus had begun with my mother around the same time, I have had thoughts of numerous definition. Painful, downright gut-wrenching thoughts. The kind that consume the entire day, no matter what seems to be happening within the everyday whirlwind. In contrast, some days have been filled with sighs of overwhelming relief. Not having to deal with the constant drama of someone who is always focused on making sure others hurt because they themselves hurt. I also deal with how much it truly tears my heart in two: these emotions that hold my mind captive, bringing about the battle within that is uniquely mine. A battle of trust, versus the probability of feeling the same pain all over again. A pain that I am always recovering from. A pain I really have no desire to allow in again.
It’s a battle. A true war.
I spend a lot of time focusing on the good. The positive. The things that bring me joy. You’ll find photography on my blog, and you’ll find my writings, which also bring me pleasure. I have many people and things outside of the online world that aid in my happiness. But, honestly, if it weren’t for the Lord, meds, my ongoing studies and introspection, I’d be far from where I am. My thoughts would have me curled up in a fetal position in a corner, wallowing in my self-pity.
My prayer this morning is for those who are thinking about the same old things that bind us to the walls of hopelessness. The chains that keep us secured to the places that don’t allow His voice to speak above our own and keep us tethered to the pride that keeps us from seeking medical and psychological counseling, can be broken. Yes, they can be broken. I encourage you to face your fears, have the courage to change what ails you and know that God is always with you through all of the obstacles. We can do ALL THINGS, through Christ, who gives us strength. I pray that we all trust in His way of showing us how to evolve and progress through all of these thoughts that bind us.