There are times, like right now,
when I begin to wonder how
God could love me.
The are ways in me
that, if I can, He can see,
that are sinful.
Brothers will say,
“You MUST change your way”,
yet, I’m selfish.
I sometimes believe
that a devil can deceive,
while a God has saved.
Other times, I am lost…
If He died on the cross,
than am I really clean?
Not a day passes by
where I boldly deny
that His creations are just.
As for me, in the now,
I am doubtful, somehow,
that I’m worthy of His Kingdom.
Say what you will.
It doesn’t change how I feel.
I see contradictions in the book.
For now, I’ll trust the Son
and the victory He won,
in my failed attempt.