A Proper Burial

Something useful was brought to my attention a few days ago. It was a statement made by a man that touched on the fact of everyone eventually dying. I can’t remember the exact words, but I do recall the thoughts I had. The progressive collection of my personal experiences after pondering his words brought me to a place of peace and humbleness, and this morning I’m looking back on the recent magnitude of his statement. He said that we are all going to die in the end, and instantly I thought about all of those people that once looked me in the eye– the faces, personalities, emotions we shared. I thought of all that they had given me that I carry today. They helped to form this, me thing. I have a hard time being attached to my wife, and not because I don’t want to be, but because I love her so much and don’t know how I’d deal if I were to lose her. She has given me a lot of insight, for she has forgiven me completely and knows me through and through. I’m blessed to have her. It became evident when she became very ill with a still questionable autoimmune disease several years ago that she or I could die from the stupidest cause. It brought us closer together. She is doing great on the medicine, and we try our best to take care of ourselves. We love to share our lives with one another and our little family.

With all that I’ve seen and experienced, and with the history of viewing myself as a complexly tattered man in my own eyes, I see just how important it is these days to be at peace. The way of doing it is derived from my intentional observation of thoughts and their patterns. It has been a life changer. I see the man I really am, and truly I understand that it is all okay. Breaking things down in the moral compass or trying to appease others over the mistakes I’ve made, or even beating myself up over what happened in the past is not something that I currently need to spend so much time on. I just need to be, which means, I just need to go with it and not get caught up in the past or unobtainable future. Core values just need to be carried and delivered in all of the present situations. Living the way I always had only gave me justified reasons to continue being a victim, or a menace to God, or a person with more hate than joy. All of those only complicated things. Why waste a beautiful life on the torment?

In a moment, a very quick one, we are going to cease to exist. Whatever comes after is unknown. I know what is now, and that’s it. Before moving out of this before me, I want to live. I want to share in the beauty of what the senses deliver. I want to have a place that brings and emits a peace and joy for everyone to share in. Watching people die and burying them and thinking back on all of the selfish ways in which we picked each other apart just isn’t what I want to think about when the next person goes. Yeah, you are going to die. Why be dead before you are dead?

2 thoughts on “A Proper Burial

  1. Thank you for sharing your insights, Damon. They are a great help to me.
    I wish you, your wife and your children good health and lots of happiness in the coming year.

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  2. Thanks again Lesley for your words of encouragement. I’m so glad to hear that you are gaining from my experience. I wish you and yours a prosperous year as well! Take care of yourself and the people around you! Thanks 😊

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