My Faith Made Me Crazy

There was much to repent of. A time, not long ago, which laid the truth of my life out before me, exposing the very real and very factual ways of who I was, had me on my knees and begging for forgiveness. It had me killing myself. Each morning, I would wake up to another day of inadequacies. Another day of feeling like I was … Continue reading My Faith Made Me Crazy

Valor

My personal life has been nothing short of dangerous. From the beginning, the mess my parents had caused- the ongoing physical and mental abuse between themselves while I sat helplessly on the sidelines, with no comprehension of why it was taking place- set me up for a dysfunctional life that is still, at times, resonating throughout my current days. Forty years later. Times, much like … Continue reading Valor

So Incredibly Flawed

Why would anyone truly claim to live a, “Christian life?” Are any of us really doing a good job? You’ve committed sin. You’ve broken the Commandments. You were born with sin, live in sin and will die with sin. You’ll sin today, tomorrow and, most likely, everyday from this day forward. So, how can you, how can any of us, call ourselves Christians, living the … Continue reading So Incredibly Flawed

A Beating Heart

I have been diagnosed with prehypertension blood pressure, and now have to take a mild medication for it. As I woke this morning, I was thinking about all of the many reasons why this heart of mine has reaped the consequences of what has been sown. I am thinking about all of the many beats, and beatings, it has taken. I remember, from a very … Continue reading A Beating Heart

Fear Not (Part 3)

As I viewed myself and came to the conclusion of never being able to stop sinning, all the while knowing that it is impossible to stop, the uneasiness lifted. The lashes I was left scarred with from the whipping I had encountered within religion were just reminders of a once, very unhealthy relationship. The reasoning I was deciphering God with shifted within me. A very … Continue reading Fear Not (Part 3)

Fear Not (Part 2)

This time alone taught me many things. It was the first time I had fully trusted in the Lord’s plan for my life. I had nothing left to lose and nothing but so much to gain through His wisdom. Wisdom: that which began with that healthy fear that I was speaking of. So what did I now begin to see within that new definition of … Continue reading Fear Not (Part 2)

Fear Not (Part 1)

I have been thinking so much about fear lately. So many professing Christians seem to be consumed with it. Specifically, the fear that ensues when one’s pride stands in the way of the Lord’s peace. But honestly, I can see why so many live within a constant fear. Here is my personal testimony of why I once had. When I began to view the very … Continue reading Fear Not (Part 1)