A Dreamlike State

Acceptance of things that are not real. A nonsensical, delusional way of viewing the world. I woke this morning to an alarm which sounded at 4:20 A.M. My wife had been up for a few minutes prior and quickly cracked a joke, saying, “Is it time for you to smoke a joint?” It took me a minute to realize what she had meant, but the … Continue reading A Dreamlike State

‘Now That I Am Beaten To A Pulp, …’

I can see why some would not want to be a Christian, and I totally understand what Gandhi meant when he said, “I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.” I believe Gandhi had a good point, and I am choosing to focus on it lately. Unfortunately, I tend to focus on the negative when I … Continue reading ‘Now That I Am Beaten To A Pulp, …’

The Walking Dead

Sometimes I see dead people walking among us. No, I’m not talking about the spirits of the dead, or demons, or figments of my imagination. Not a hallucination or a symptom deriving from a mental disorder. I am talking about the living and functioning human being. Already dead, on his or her feet. I have an acquaintance who is filling himself with harmful things. A … Continue reading The Walking Dead

Problems With No Solution

Do you ever feel as though the problem that you have is, ‘just the way it is?’ I used to have a strong desire to stay within my box. Like some kind of caged animal that would retreat when a threat would arise. If I wandered outside of my comfort zone, the challenge would be seen as an obstacle, and the way through it was … Continue reading Problems With No Solution

What Is Love, Father?

Some people have a hard time showing, giving and receiving love. Myself and my late father being two of them. My childhood mainly consisted of many of the ugly things in life. Insecurities. Anxiety. Uncertainty. Fear. Many negatives. It was truly through those times of my youth that shaped me into the man I would end up being. It was through those experiences I became … Continue reading What Is Love, Father?

My Two Fathers: One Flawless, One Fallen

I write with a very heavy heart this morning. Monday morning, my father passed. It has taken a few days for me to really sort through all of the emotions, and today I am writing about some of the many thoughts I have had. If you grew up in a home that was full of torture as I did, then I pray that this post … Continue reading My Two Fathers: One Flawless, One Fallen

As Far As The East Is From The West

The many things that we believe about ourselves and the world can limit the fullness of the Lord within us. I was attending a recovery program for a few months. The title, “Celebrate Recovery” was something I had not known as I was brought to the door of the meeting by a man I had gone to junior high school with. Jerry and I were … Continue reading As Far As The East Is From The West