A Man—No More Than A Dream

I knocked on my father’s door at the end of the hall last night. I knew that it was his apartment because of the items outside of his door. He didn’t answer at first, but he finally did. As he appeared, his mostly naked body stumbled backward as he let me in. His nose clearly had been broken, his words were slurred, and his eyes … Continue reading A Man—No More Than A Dream

The Quest For Hope

I’m going to be completely transparent this evening, and it may disappoint a few. There is a lingering sadness that hangs over my head. It is not a type of emotional condition that one may quickly identify with or relate to, but rather a true part of me that life has courteously thrown my way. I use the word sadness to define the overall condition … Continue reading The Quest For Hope

So Little Known

I ran across this song in February of 2019. It was just a few days after my father had passed. The song had so much emotion, as I also had, that was expressed through Thom’s unbelievably unique talent. My father was a mystery to me, but what little I did get to experience while knowing him was a mix of how this song makes me … Continue reading So Little Known

All The World’s A Stage

I have this human experience, yet, I am of spirit. It is interesting to think about: the unlimited ways in which we are fully human. Can one describe the complexities of the human experience without becoming exhausted? It would take years to do so. It is evident that people spend most of their time in the human form trying to figure and make sense of … Continue reading All The World’s A Stage

The Gift Of The Unknown

As I wake this morning, I sit and wonder why I exist. Is there a bigger plan that I am somehow a very small part of? I believe so. I believe we all are. Somehow, we are an intricate part of a divine whole. I do mine, you do yours, and somehow, the end result has purpose. Just my thoughts. But, is this great working … Continue reading The Gift Of The Unknown

In Layers Of Our Time

The fall of the leaves The lighting of sun’s fire The walk within the forest that I do so desire They bring back many memories of what was for so long in time that will never return with family and friend now gone We had our winsome moments around this time of change in years that will never return and this year it feels so … Continue reading In Layers Of Our Time

Road’s End

The things that you collect; the idols you protect; the shrines that you have built; the hurts and the guilt; the money put away; the things you didn’t say; the luxuries and gold; the secrets never told; the insecurities that you hide; the humbleness and pride; the love and hate you had for them; the battles you could not win…   You cannot take this … Continue reading Road’s End

Departure

I watched a young man and his little boy play around a shopping cart as they waited at the bus stop. I wondered, as I watched the little boy, if we return to the same sort of innocence when we move on from this life. I wondered if the life to come will hold the same childlike innocence the boy was exploring. While watching him, … Continue reading Departure

Surpassed Understanding

Yesterday morning, I read the following: The peace of God: This is the peace spoken of in Philippians 4:7. It is beyond “all mind”; that is, beyond our power of thinking. “What is God’s peace? The unruffled serenity of the infinitely-happy God, the eternal composure of the absolutely well-contented God.” (Spurgeon) Which surpasses all understanding: It isn’t that it is senseless and therefore impossible to … Continue reading Surpassed Understanding

Staring Into Existence

What are these things that we call, “space and time”? We never truly understand it, no matter what theory comes along. No matter how proud we become of the hypothesis. What is this space that we live in? We divide it up, the infinite, into little compartments. Walls. Fences. Divisions. We claim and fill our spaces, within, outside, with the collections, trying hard to satisfy … Continue reading Staring Into Existence

In The End, Most Of This Doesn’t Matter

I watched my grandfather, who lived to be 93 years of age, lie in bed after his wife had passed. He was dealing with a lot of sorrow after she had moved on to her eternal life. He would just stay in bed most of the time. I had a few limited interactions with him within those few months between my grandmother’s and his passing. … Continue reading In The End, Most Of This Doesn’t Matter

A Reminder Of Peace In The Vastness Of Space

I’ve always been fascinated by a clear night sky. The light against the blackened backdrop. Each star and galaxy, appearing as a shimmering dot to my eye. To know that one could travel at the speed of light and never reach those places. The emptiness, full of so much that we will never know. The mysterious splendor of it all. A created universe, I believe, … Continue reading A Reminder Of Peace In The Vastness Of Space

A Place of Peace

Saturdays are sometimes the very best days to take a little time to unwind. The long work weeks have a way of draining me physically and mentally, but that is something I value. It is never a disappointment to come home from a long day to see the rewards. Warm coffee, a peaceful song in my headphones to drown out the noise of a fussy … Continue reading A Place of Peace

What Is Love, Father?

Some people have a hard time showing, giving and receiving love. Myself and my late father being two of them. My childhood mainly consisted of many of the ugly things in life. Insecurities. Anxiety. Uncertainty. Fear. Many negatives. It was truly through those times of my youth that shaped me into the man I would end up being. It was through those experiences I became … Continue reading What Is Love, Father?

“Good Seeing You Too.”

My best friend came by for a visit last night. Actually, I visited him. I needed him to assist in finding something illegal. I had a dream about my deceased buddy. I woke this morning thinking about the many times my deceased loved ones have appeared within my dreams. The conversations that we share. The usual strange aspects and details of our visits. The situations. … Continue reading “Good Seeing You Too.”