The Quest For Hope

I’m going to be completely transparent this evening, and it may disappoint a few. There is a lingering sadness that hangs over my head. It is not a type of emotional condition that one may quickly identify with or relate to, but rather a true part of me that life has courteously thrown my way. I use the word sadness to define the overall condition … Continue reading The Quest For Hope

Morning Minding

I know that God is real. Anyone who doesn’t see it must be completely blind. Have you ever looked at the ground and observed the ants crafting their excavated hills — constantly doing their work in order to take care of the queen located somewhere within the ground beneath? Have you? Or, have you seen the microscopic bacteria magnified, observing just how alive they truly … Continue reading Morning Minding

Facade

God knows the secrets we hide. The things hidden from the world, kept inside. A front for the masses, to make one look good, is a mask for our fears — things misunderstood. A day spent in words and expressions to see, is not really all that’s in you or me. The thoughts that you cover from the brother you deride are exposed to the … Continue reading Facade

Patient Being

As soon as the blessings come, the evil begins. That devil and his kind delight in your sins. After the prayer, at the heels of your feet, the darkness takes its deluding seat. Do you follow God, or, are you deceived, by the glorious light the devil retrieved? A persnickety one — that angel of light; the one you battle often, often losing the fight. … Continue reading Patient Being

What We Give

Christmas time is upon us, and I have been reading the usual Christian posts: the real reason for the season, the Pagan roots of the holiday, the reasons why we should or shouldn’t celebrate, Scripture quotes. The usual. I have been thinking about what the true meaning of Christmas has become to me while being up at this very unusual hour of the morning. I … Continue reading What We Give

Teach Me, O’ Lord

Benevolence — the true reason of His. Loving from our core because we understand this. Not a sappy love or the emotion we know. Not a sexual love or the feelings that grow. It’s selfless and sacrificial. What we tend not to be It’s Agape love and with Him, we see. We notice our heart and its controlling ways. We look past all our hurts … Continue reading Teach Me, O’ Lord

It’s All Love

I’m up so early this morning, and just maybe it’s for good reason? I have been noticing how everything that has been going on within my life — outside of the inevitable wages of sin that tend to show up everyday; the fallen world we live in — points me directly to the love of God. I’ll do my best to explain. Everything — from … Continue reading It’s All Love

Behind The Heart

Just be what you would like to see in others. The moment one begins to act as if they are above someone else, it quickly sets them in a position that people tend to avoid. What do you see within yourself? Beyond the flesh and bone that surrounds the true, inner self, what do you see? The thought that I had this morning as I … Continue reading Behind The Heart

Growing Within The Power Within Yourself

Oh no! A Christian writing about “self”! He must be a fake?! We’re supposed to deny ourselves (Matt. 16:24)!! HA! Okay, so the title of my post this morning may look a little self-centered and deceiving. Allow me a few minutes to explain? First and foremost, this is my personal experience. I am not here to preach, argue or correct, and I won’t discuss apologetics. … Continue reading Growing Within The Power Within Yourself

Collaborate

I passionately choose to discuss the subject of divisions within His Church. The last few posts I have written, as well as several prior, attest to this. For the last couple of days, I have chosen to not put anything into word and just observe what unfolds. Sometimes, too much focus upon one subject can obscure a vision that is waiting to be seen. It … Continue reading Collaborate

Falling Away

What is it that you find when you observe what you have today? Are the things that you’ve created in the past the pillars of the answer you will convey?   Do you hold onto the past mistakes that hinder what you could be? Are those pillars of self-worth and confidence crumbling slowly into the sea?   Are the pillars made of discontent that you’ve … Continue reading Falling Away

Faithful To The Fire

You place yourself higher than others, by explaining it all. The man with the answers. How great thou art… without any flaw. It must be the best life to know you are best. To walk among the sheep, and to quickly attest that Christianity is ignorance and faith is a delusion. Should we abandon our God and assume your godly conclusion? Please explain this life, … Continue reading Faithful To The Fire

When We Long For Idols

The Way of the Cross ( Matt. 8: 34-38, NIV) 34 Then he called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. 35 For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will save … Continue reading When We Long For Idols

Choose This Day…

The time is now to accept what is true but to not stay there if it is harming you Time is not promised and the days are only so long Take the time within this day to recognize what is wrong How to know what is right is evaluating what is real the things that are your true essence are not the emotions that you … Continue reading Choose This Day…

A Wise Man Once Said…

The wisest of men have no time to look at themselves, to see what they’d find. They are the best at all that they do. Much better than the simpletons, like me and you. Talk over us, they will. Our words are just noise. We are not worthy of these great despots of poise. Lean into their wisdom– you may miss what they say as … Continue reading A Wise Man Once Said…

Alone with Him

You see my Spirit, my Lord. You see what you have placed within me the moment I opened my heart to you. In this imperfect man, your perfection lies. I tell the world that my faith in you sometimes wavers, and yet, your mercy remains… and the mercy of others doesn’t… and I’m frowned upon by these, “holy people”. They divide your people. They put … Continue reading Alone with Him

All That Is

What are we to be, as we float around in the vastness–held down to this ground that we have learned to walk upon? Who am I in God’s plan? Why do humans have such an unstable balance? Why do so many love themselves before they love the desires of God? Why, in the unfathomably little amount of space that we truly take up within this … Continue reading All That Is

A Good Friend

A friend I used to hang with had a beautiful way about him He was the best a person could ask for He went by the name of Sin He and I used to laugh together all hours of the day He’d bring me gifts of pleasure and show me splendid ways When night came, we’d celebrate under cover of darkened skies He was the … Continue reading A Good Friend

Are You Righteous?

I threw out all of the past bitterness and tried to love again. Without getting into much detail, I will tell you a bit about my recent, personal experience with forgiveness. It truly has taken me a long time to learn how to knock down a few barriers; those walls that have been built up over my life. So many different avenues that led me … Continue reading Are You Righteous?

Mental Suicide

Those thoughts which bring us down; the things that we tend to dwell on that leave us in a state of devastation. These types of thoughts are so incredibly familiar to me. Throughout my life, I’ve had so much negative influence, so many different pulls and pushes that have left me curled up into a ball, balling like a baby, a ton of self-induced affliction … Continue reading Mental Suicide

That Particular Sin Is Sending You To Hell!

There is a good reason why I cannot see eye to eye with many Christians that I encounter. I tend to be very observant when it comes to people. I suppose it is just a part of me, as I have always had that tendency. It is not so much the physical aspects of them, (at a time, it once was and, unfortunately, I would … Continue reading That Particular Sin Is Sending You To Hell!

Willing To Die

The many documentaries on Netflix and Hulu about the Holocaust are what I find myself often watching when I do sit in front of the television. I’ve been on a WWII documentary kick for several years now, and I can honestly say that I’ve always been intrigued by the reality of this particular war, as well as the unbelievable calamity our men, women and children … Continue reading Willing To Die

One Way Out

Sometimes, the way I approach difficult tasks, especially those which demand a change in my thinking, leaves me in a state of uneasiness. There has been many challenges in the ways I have been developing. Patience. Kindness. Grace. Love. Gentleness. All of these things, as well as many others, seem to be getting easier as time passes. Although, the challenges have had their share of … Continue reading One Way Out

So Ashamed Of Religious Righteousness

I had read an article earlier about someone who divides his relationships between “the rest of the world” and his brothers and sisters in Christ. Frankly, it made me shake my head as the bad taste in my mouth arose. Another Christian, dividing. Before someone comes to my post and dissects its content with Scripture, as I assume many will be thinking about how believers … Continue reading So Ashamed Of Religious Righteousness

Staring Into Existence

What are these things that we call, “space and time”? We never truly understand it, no matter what theory comes along. No matter how proud we become of the hypothesis. What is this space that we live in? We divide it up, the infinite, into little compartments. Walls. Fences. Divisions. We claim and fill our spaces, within, outside, with the collections, trying hard to satisfy … Continue reading Staring Into Existence

Why Is Jesus Called “Son Of Man”?

From John Piper- He was a son of man, that is, a human being. And he is the Son of God, in that he has always existed as the Eternally Begotten One who comes forth from the Father forever. He always has, and he always will. He is the Second Person of the Trinity with all of the divine nature fully in him. He is … Continue reading Why Is Jesus Called “Son Of Man”?

Foolish Faith

Several days ago, after being trampled under foot by a horrendous event, I was on the verge of losing my composure. I will admit, I was freely letting my feelings and distresses be known about some of the personal troubles I have been dealing with in many places where they should have been contained. Reluctantly, I later unloaded and expressed them in front of my … Continue reading Foolish Faith

In The End, Most Of This Doesn’t Matter

I watched my grandfather, who lived to be 93 years of age, lie in bed after his wife had passed. He was dealing with a lot of sorrow after she had moved on to her eternal life. He would just stay in bed most of the time. I had a few limited interactions with him within those few months between my grandmother’s and his passing. … Continue reading In The End, Most Of This Doesn’t Matter

One Of Two Ways

How often others are so incredibly determined to seek and destroy, simply because they themselves are already destroyed in some way. From here on out, there will be a small group of atheists peeking at my posts and seeking an opportunity to cut me down. It’s been a tough last few days going back and forth with these people who desire to pull anyone and … Continue reading One Of Two Ways

No Prayers Answered

Yesterday, I had made the mistake of saying something to a blogger that sent he and several others into a defensive rebuttal. I suppose I should have expected it. I had told him that his constant blasphemy (his ongoing blog directed towards how one is wasting their time seeking God, based on his own personal experience) would someday come back to haunt him. I was … Continue reading No Prayers Answered

Integrity Is Relative

The do-gooders; those who are morally upright. There are so many different perceptions one may have when taking a look at them. I often wonder what drives, or why one is driven, to be a stand up citizen. Outside looking in, we observe the front that is put on by others. Over time, we may get to see the true nature of those whom we … Continue reading Integrity Is Relative

A Place of Peace

This morning, I took a look at the archives of my writings. The following is the first post I ever put out there for the world to read. As I reflect back on where I’ve been, where I am now and where I would like to go, I keep Christ at center. He is the rock that I stand upon. I pray this morning that … Continue reading A Place of Peace

The Damaging Truth

It took quite a few years to accept the truth about a few aspects of myself. Bitterness is something that I am more familiar with than many. It is truly a part of me. Since, unfortunately, I have carried this unwanted trait around for so long, it has become a battle of which I constantly have to manage. For many, many years, I did not … Continue reading The Damaging Truth

A Clean-Shaven Life

I have a confession to make: I’m lazy when it comes to shaving my face. I am not the guy who will rise and make shaving a part of the daily morning routine. It’s not uncommon for me to go a week or two with a short beard before finally growing tired of seeing it in the mirror. I have another confession: My Christian life … Continue reading A Clean-Shaven Life

The Pain That Heals

This past Saturday night, my beloved dog of ten years died. He was probably one of the best dogs in the world. Of course, any dog owner would probably say the same about their own dog. He was a huge blessing to me, especially when I was all alone at an all-time low within my life. His comfort, warmth, playful personality and willingness to always … Continue reading The Pain That Heals

Results Of Our Disgust

There is a fine line many walk after the choice is made to take up a cross. That new way of life sometimes has a terrible way attached to it. As we learn more about the ways of our Lord, and see that our ways are usually in contrast to His Spirit, we begin to edge closer to that fine line. That line, where judgment … Continue reading Results Of Our Disgust

Forgotten Silences

There is a certain moment within many mornings throughout the week. I start my vehicle and sit for a few minutes under the large trees lining our street. I usually find some music to listen to and lay my collection of items in the passenger seat. That time is a routine I’ve had for many years. There is about a half-hour drive to my place … Continue reading Forgotten Silences

Don’t Give Up

The following is an excerpt from the Christian-based book: Overcoming Anxiety, Worry And Fear by Dr. Gregory L. Jantz and Ann Mc Murray. If you suffer from any of the three, or a combination of, I highly recommend the book. It is a book I have referenced, recommended and gifted for the past three years. It is a great aid in learning how to overcome … Continue reading Don’t Give Up

A Dreamlike State

Acceptance of things that are not real. A nonsensical, delusional way of viewing the world. I woke this morning to an alarm which sounded at 4:20 A.M. My wife had been up for a few minutes prior and quickly cracked a joke, saying, “Is it time for you to smoke a joint?” It took me a minute to realize what she had meant, but the … Continue reading A Dreamlike State