A Dreamlike State

Acceptance of things that are not real. A nonsensical, delusional way of viewing the world. I woke this morning to an alarm which sounded at 4:20 A.M. My wife had been up for a few minutes prior and quickly cracked a joke, saying, “Is it time for you to smoke a joint?” It took me a minute to realize what she had meant, but the … Continue reading A Dreamlike State

Mr. Positivity

I have an acquaintance who had sent a video link to my phone. The short five-minute sketch was performed by a well-known comedian. The guy was answering the door for trick-or-treaters, saying, as well as doing very raunchy things. The humor was something that I would have thoroughly enjoyed in past years, but I watched about two minutes of it and completely lost interest. It … Continue reading Mr. Positivity

The Heart Of The Matter

I tend to get to the underlying root of what I consider to be the major problems that I face within life, but that has not always been the case. I remember a specific time, and this time is burned into my memory because of the people and events that were involved leading up to it. This time was in the winter of 2000. I’d … Continue reading The Heart Of The Matter

Decluttering

As I was cleaning up this morning; placing the dirty dishes in the dishwasher, cleaning up the kitchen, doing laundry and hanging a few pictures from my father’s home, I was going through many things within. Accompanied by the soothing music in my headphones and the emotions that ensued from the joy of the instrumentals, I surrendered to the calming. The calming: a peace of … Continue reading Decluttering

Despondent

“Nihilism is often discussed in terms of extreme skepticism and relativism; for most of the 20th century it has been associated with the belief that life is meaningless. Existential nihilism begins with the notion that the world is without meaning or purpose. Given this circumstance, existence itself–all action, suffering, and feeling–is ultimately senseless and empty.” “Life is meaningless because scientific evidence shows that God does … Continue reading Despondent

“Listen, Devil…”

My wife and I should have chosen our careers somewhere within criminal justice. We are both very interested in the forensics, psychology of the criminal mind and legal action, just to name a few aspects. We are very adamant and supportive of our judicial system, even though we both agree its representatives can be very corrupt. We support the rightful penalties of criminal actions, as … Continue reading “Listen, Devil…”

What Is Love, Father?

Some people have a hard time showing, giving and receiving love. Myself and my late father being two of them. My childhood mainly consisted of many of the ugly things in life. Insecurities. Anxiety. Uncertainty. Fear. Many negatives. It was truly through those times of my youth that shaped me into the man I would end up being. It was through those experiences I became … Continue reading What Is Love, Father?