I Woke Up

After listening to Mr. Alan Watts tonight, it is evident to me that what the last few weeks have illuminated is a direct reflection of what he had spoken of. There have been times throughout those weeks of mine, involving a handful of certain individuals, that have served up the evidence to back up the words I’d heard from Mr. Watts tonight. And to save … Continue reading I Woke Up

Greater Day Wanted

The personal ways I sometimes choose leads me to different paths that are part of the experience, and I like to reflect while the emotions do their thing. I’m at a place of peace, because knowing how the emotions work and why/how they go on wild rides periodically has opened up the place many try to find, sometimes for a lifetime. Seeing how the world … Continue reading Greater Day Wanted

The Identity Dissolve

I had a hard time yesterday with a decision. Probably one of the biggest challenges I’ve had in months. But it was through the final decision made that I felt the pull, while then challenging myself to make it through. This particular thing that was poking at me was something that had been prevalent in years before–once again it reared its ugly yet tempting head. … Continue reading The Identity Dissolve

Here and There

It is an amazing and mysterious experience once again on this Wednesday, 2022. Wednesday, 2022. That alone is mysterious. Two small signposts humans have created. A time in an existence that we have given a name. I was driving home from work yesterday. There is a long stretch of highway linking the city where our employers are and town in which we live. The sky … Continue reading Here and There

Ask The Ducks

It is a wonderful place to cycle in the neighboring city. My love for biking has always centered around the many streets and foot trails near the heart of the metropolis where I was raised. I love living in my wife’s town where she grew up but continuing to make trips into the city to ride is something that I like to do. It is … Continue reading Ask The Ducks

Binary

I used to see the dark of night as a place to hide my battles. A blanket of comfortable absence for the absent joy. Void of color, visual stimulation and value where solitude made a home. If the rain had fallen, a reflective shimmer would arise, granted light did appear. Black glass on streets of sorrows; deceptive thoughts of promising tomorrows. Hiding in a canopy … Continue reading Binary

A Proper Burial

Something useful was brought to my attention a few days ago. It was a statement made by a man that touched on the fact of everyone eventually dying. I can’t remember the exact words, but I do recall the thoughts I had. The progressive collection of my personal experiences after pondering his words brought me to a place of peace and humbleness, and this morning … Continue reading A Proper Burial

Peace In Us

The joy of Christmas is something that has changed for me this year. A few months ago I was gazing into the vast and infinite space. Behind what was visible, I thought about how small I was. In the grand scheme of what I could comprehend as I observed, it occurred to me that my mind has such a minimal say in what was going … Continue reading Peace In Us

With So Much

My friend Jeff was a beautiful soul and a kindred spirit. His simplicity towards life was something I admired. Even though I never asked him very detailed questions about why he’d chosen to live his life the way he did, I gathered my own assumptions. That was good enough for me at the time. Jeff was a man I had known since my childhood. I … Continue reading With So Much

Always Dead. Always.

I wonder what it is that convinces one to hang on to pain, even though he or she knows that it isn’t helping matters? It was always different than it is now, before I began to live in the present. How unaware I was—even though I reflected on a pain from the past, I was doing it in the present moment, which is truly the … Continue reading Always Dead. Always.