Moving Day

I’ve been spending time of mornings away from the writing here at WordPress. Writing is just not as useful to me as it once had been. When I started this blog, I had a goal: share my personal testimony, with the hope of others seeing the glory of God through Jesus Christ within those accounts of my life. My road has had many ups and … Continue reading Moving Day

It All

Wouldn’t it be nice to remove it all? To take all of the pure filth we are exposed to each day and throw it away? To recognize the dumb stuff we do to fit in to a society of competition and comparison– now so, more than ever, with all of the social media and misinformation– and see that we are really only competing with ourselves? … Continue reading It All

Substance

A few nights ago, I had a terrible nightmare that was all-consuming. Do you ever have that type of dream that is lucid and so realistic that it seems as though it is actually happening? Where you wake the next morning, questioning the true reality of your existence? Well, this nightmare was one of those. I suppose it had been the questioning of certain aspects … Continue reading Substance

Now

So much sadness fills the hearts of people. No time for the fruits of His Spirit. You know, love, joy, peace, and so on. The opposing is rather forceful, it seems. The demons we possess–both past, present, and anticipated future–contaminate the light, pulling us into those places that no longer exist… Just in our heads. The heart aligns with those places. The opposing is familiar. … Continue reading Now

The Calamities In You

I don’t read what most have to say. Yesterday was a beautiful morning. There is a certain long stretch of road surrounded by the landscape of trees that I especially enjoy in the early morning, as the sun’s rays display nicely there. I have been taking the road for the last few months on my commute to work. It’s a peaceful beginning to the inevitable … Continue reading The Calamities In You

Not Secure

Within the flesh the inadequacies lie Fading and falling before we die Clinging to wisdom we see ourselves stable In blinding of night we see we’re not able When taking what we are and expecting much more We fade like we had in all times before We hit our graves early as we rob in our greed never ceasing to know just what we need Continue reading Not Secure

Wasteful Thinking

What does it do for you, to think on such things– the squander and morose. All the haste that it brings. Nothing is achieved, except the misery you teach. Mundane and jaded. My, the woes you do preach. Does it pay in the end to lose all you’ve gained? That beautiful laughter? The grip you maintained? A challenge has come, and you fold, with a … Continue reading Wasteful Thinking

Rise

I think I’ll look for peace today. Not worrying about the panic and the current, stressful way. I think I’ll enjoy the songs of the birds outside my door, and see the beauty in someone that I’ve never seen before. Maybe I’ll catch the sunrise as I’m heading towards the east– capturing the calm that, for a time, had sadly ceased. I think I’ll look … Continue reading Rise

Nothing

Thrown into their madness. The child never had a chance. He wasn’t given an option. Victim of circumstance. No happiness, early on. No place to be a kid. He was forced to learn too early by watching what they did. Was it just a part of life –this newness he was seeing– to hit another person; to scare and scream when meeting? Each time, he … Continue reading Nothing

Dear Friend

Dig up the awful and dwell upon its bane. You then begin to wonder why you feel the same old pain. A new way of thinking… No, that won’t work for you. It involves a change of direction, and we know what pity does for you. It keeps you grounded in your purpose. Right where you want to be. Your turn your head before observing … Continue reading Dear Friend

Awaiting

As a silent observer, I often view my world from the outside. In other words, I take the time to examine myself — the practicalities, emotions, responses, etc. Being in tune with me. This morning, I have been observing a recurring, personal fact. This post may be considered a bit morbid for some, but I tend to write from my heart. I often think about … Continue reading Awaiting

Invasion Of The Joy Snatchers

Do you ever feel as though you joy is being robbed from you? Within the last few weeks, I have. It had been a very stressful time in recent days as I took on the many tasks, dealings with people and the lack of sleep. The combination had me pretty edgy throughout most of the hours. A very physical occupation which also requires a great … Continue reading Invasion Of The Joy Snatchers

Thoughts Of His Own Making

“No words to express, no substance to digest, no opinion to contest, no view from you to ingest… I sit dormant in the morn.   Not a single thing to say about this season or this day, not even a suggestion coming from your way is regarded as okay… I’d rather sit and sulk in scorn.    Pity myself, I will. It’s become such a … Continue reading Thoughts Of His Own Making

I Have…

I heard a woman behind me speaking as I sat and enjoyed a meal. She was very talkative as she sat there with her parents, and her topics were such a big deal.   As I sat alone, I couldn’t avoid her boastful chatter. She was drowning out concentration. I tried to read things I was interested in, but all I heard was their conversation. … Continue reading I Have…

As The Heart Pleads

My heart has changed through a way of love I now choose to see the other unfortunately not always but most of the time as a close and respected brother   My heart has changed through a way of compassion I now see the trouble we share I sometimes question why people are hurt but for them I say a prayer   My heart has … Continue reading As The Heart Pleads

Their Futile Rumination

When things are grey, much like the skies over our foreseen days of cabin fever, we look into ourselves. The walls close in. We begin to think of things that aren’t true: Do they care? Do I matter? Why me? Am I as good as I tell myself?   The grey impedes. Shortened days and wearisome nights. Patience restrained. Diving deeper into the abyss of … Continue reading Their Futile Rumination

The Foundering

Your said that to yourself yesterday, did you not? That truth that is, again, the lie? You’d promised yourself, and God, that you would not break, but your chance to prove it passed by. You said to yourself it would all end. Repentance is what you labeled your aim. But look at you — back it the same boat. The same sinful act and shame. … Continue reading The Foundering

Memory

The man who broke her heart. The perfect moment in time. The day they plunged into the cold lake after two bottles of wine. The day he lost his fortune, after pissing it away. The night the bridge had closed after her brother jumped into the bay. The long line at the soup kitchen, where they ran out of supply before the man could get … Continue reading Memory

Road’s End

The things that you collect; the idols you protect; the shrines that you have built; the hurts and the guilt; the money put away; the things you didn’t say; the luxuries and gold; the secrets never told; the insecurities that you hide; the humbleness and pride; the love and hate you had for them; the battles you could not win…   You cannot take this … Continue reading Road’s End

Take A Look

So many opinions, so little time, to see the individuality– what is yours, what is mine. Streamline the masses– tell them they’re wrong when the speak a different language or sing a different song. Opinions are not optional to the one who’s talking down in a condescending manner to the one who stands their ground. The proud man walks ahead and waits for the next … Continue reading Take A Look

A Wise Man Once Said…

The wisest of men have no time to look at themselves, to see what they’d find. They are the best at all that they do. Much better than the simpletons, like me and you. Talk over us, they will. Our words are just noise. We are not worthy of these great despots of poise. Lean into their wisdom– you may miss what they say as … Continue reading A Wise Man Once Said…

Today’s Youth Counts

The fingers were used to show this little, undeveloped mind of mine how to count. I remember, “One, two, three…” as someone would point to the fingers on my hand. Over time, I could count to one hundred, or two hundred, or three hundred! You can probably remember how excited you were being able to show the grown-ups how you had learned to count higher … Continue reading Today’s Youth Counts

The Reality Of A Man

Broken windshield and burned out taillights Punched in walls and empty pockets No money for food, just for booze Morning is here What misery can he find? Maybe a negative thought to brighten his day Perhaps a scratch off to cry about after instant loss The world is to blame!!!! Misfortune will come tomorrow Again, and again Nothing to win over a day of peace … Continue reading The Reality Of A Man

Willing To Die

The many documentaries on Netflix and Hulu about the Holocaust are what I find myself often watching when I do sit in front of the television. I’ve been on a WWII documentary kick for several years now, and I can honestly say that I’ve always been intrigued by the reality of this particular war, as well as the unbelievable calamity our men, women and children … Continue reading Willing To Die

A Talking Love

It’s very difficult for me to really trust someone to the point of being able to fully share my heartaches. There are things that I am consumed with that only a select few and the Lord know about. Yesterday, I was able to give away some of those things that have been weighing on my heart. My beloved wife and I had a few minutes … Continue reading A Talking Love

A Day At A Time

Oh, Lord… Help me to be what you would have me be, today. Take away these sinful desires that I have carried along the way. For the many years of this journey with you, I have failed you. I will fail again, Lord. This, you know. I ask that you guide me in your ways throughout this day ahead.  Lord, thank you for your forgiveness. … Continue reading A Day At A Time

What We Choose To See

The anticipation of spring; the long awaited event that is greatly appreciated after a cold winter. The blooming of the new, full of the bold colors of God’s choosing. My wife requested that we surround the house with flowers this year. We had moved into a different home a little over a year ago and the landscape was pretty bare. It needed a lot of … Continue reading What We Choose To See

Paid For What?

What ever happened to working as if one is working for the Lord? Colossians 3:22-24 NIV 22 Slaves, obey your earthly masters in everything; and do it, not only when their eye is on you and to curry their favor, but with sincerity of heart and reverence for the Lord. 23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the … Continue reading Paid For What?

Humbly From Nothing

There seems to be a great emphasis on the building up of one’s own achievements in today’s society. So many times, I have seen the true pride of self glorified within the words and actions of others. Today, I am focusing on the harm of such ways. Before I get too deep, I would like to say a couple of things. First, I am not … Continue reading Humbly From Nothing

A Force To Be Reckoned With

I had a friend many years ago who could walk into a room and quiet everyone with his domineering ways. The very presence of him: unbelievably large physique, dark complexion, dark clothing and the attitude comparable to that of a Viking, were very good reasons to move aside as he would enter. Everyone, and I mean everyone, felt intimidated within his company. I witnessed some … Continue reading A Force To Be Reckoned With

Finding Our Reasons Not To Love

The tendency to be selfish is easier for some than it is for others. I had a friend who began working at the same place I had. We didn’t really have anything in common, but we did share the faith in Christ. I suppose that was the beginning of our short time of friendship and fellowship. It was also a great opportunity to share Christ … Continue reading Finding Our Reasons Not To Love

Results Of Our Disgust

There is a fine line many walk after the choice is made to take up a cross. That new way of life sometimes has a terrible way attached to it. As we learn more about the ways of our Lord, and see that our ways are usually in contrast to His Spirit, we begin to edge closer to that fine line. That line, where judgment … Continue reading Results Of Our Disgust

Forgotten Silences

There is a certain moment within many mornings throughout the week. I start my vehicle and sit for a few minutes under the large trees lining our street. I usually find some music to listen to and lay my collection of items in the passenger seat. That time is a routine I’ve had for many years. There is about a half-hour drive to my place … Continue reading Forgotten Silences

“Listen, Devil…”

My wife and I should have chosen our careers somewhere within criminal justice. We are both very interested in the forensics, psychology of the criminal mind and legal action, just to name a few aspects. We are very adamant and supportive of our judicial system, even though we both agree its representatives can be very corrupt. We support the rightful penalties of criminal actions, as … Continue reading “Listen, Devil…”

Time In A Bottle

These past few days have been surreal. Since we laid my Father to rest and the family and I helped to eliminate the belongings from his home, I have been running through so many different thoughts, emotions and nothing short of extremely stinging sorrows. You may already know, but my father and I were distant. We had a huge falling out several years ago and … Continue reading Time In A Bottle

My Two Fathers: One Flawless, One Fallen

I write with a very heavy heart this morning. Monday morning, my father passed. It has taken a few days for me to really sort through all of the emotions, and today I am writing about some of the many thoughts I have had. If you grew up in a home that was full of torture as I did, then I pray that this post … Continue reading My Two Fathers: One Flawless, One Fallen

Learning From Our Consequences

My wife and I were having a brief discussion about the consequences of actions as I was preparing to leave for work this morning. The topic was about the mistakes we had made by choosing to run into past intimate relationships and marriages without first getting to know the person. You see, both my wife and I did not practice what we, me more so … Continue reading Learning From Our Consequences

Realized

We cannot judge the heart of our neighbor. It is not up to us. How often we see and conclude from the surface of our fellow neighbor. We observe the outward man, but we do not see the true nature of that man as God does. So many, including myself, have the tendency to conclude one’s definition based on appearance, personality and limited knowledge of … Continue reading Realized

Joyrides

Trying times can bring many different things to us as individuals. I took a long drive today. My wife works thirds on the weekends and two of my three kids always go to their grandparent’s home for the two days. Our twelve-year-old stays secluded in his room, literally all weekend, and plays Fortnite. It is absolutely his obsession right now. I have my feelings about … Continue reading Joyrides

Living A Lie

At one time within my personal life, lies were just another part of who I was. It was not a big deal to lie to my parents. It was no problem to lie to cover up something that I was doing which directly broke a rule, a law or a moral standard. If I could get away with lying and pulling through with no consequence, … Continue reading Living A Lie

A Perfection Which Exceeds His

There is not a day that goes by where I do not have these intentions of being subservient to our Lord. Each day starts with thanking Him for being there for me. He is my strength. The entire day I am looking through a new window, and through this window there is a faint image, a faint reflection, of a new man. A reflection of … Continue reading A Perfection Which Exceeds His

Seriously?

Why can’t we just read the Bible, do our study, encourage one another in Spirit, truth and love, and leave the ‘I’m right and you’re wrong’ debate out? Can we not assess and come up with our decision? I have been on WordPress today reading many posts. Some are plain silly. The way Christians argue is like listening to two small kids fight over a … Continue reading Seriously?

Time For Me

I noticed this morning, like many other mornings and days I have had throughout my life, that I was starting to wander. My thoughts were taking me to places that were not of peace. It has taken me many years to undo those patterns within my mind that have done nothing but destroy me not only mentally, but physically. In turn, my gratitude and willingness … Continue reading Time For Me

Emptiness And The Empathetic Hiatus

I’m so tired from trying to save someone dear to me. Literally, I am drained to the max. There is a person who is sitting alone, everyday, chain smoking their cigarettes and being entertained by little animals. Contained in a little box. The delusions and lies, finger-pointing and blameless character keeps many from knocking at their door. I’m drained. Drained because of their failure to … Continue reading Emptiness And The Empathetic Hiatus

A New Day To Choose

Each day brings us all new challenges, battles and hardships. Each day also brings a choice to give it all to the Lord and just have faith that He will prevail. By maintaining faith, just as we have faith in the sun rising to greet another day, we can rest, assured in His grace. As the day progresses, may we never lose sight of His … Continue reading A New Day To Choose

I’m Tired…

You sure can’t fix others. There has been an ongoing struggle between myself and a loved one that I have been writing about lately. Once again, we are at a standstill. Joe and I, not the real name of the person but what I will call them, have been fighting a serious battle. Long story short, Joe and I have a hard time letting things … Continue reading I’m Tired…

“I’m Not Changing!!”

“Not listening.” Something I have struggled with throughout my life. Purposely shutting my ears off. Shutting people out. Not wanting to hear the other person. As I’m growing older, I find myself at times wandering off as I’m listening to others speak. My brain begins to focus on a thought and I totally miss what I was trying to hear. I need to work on … Continue reading “I’m Not Changing!!”