My Struggle With Isolation (Part 2)

Link to My Struggle With Isolation (Part 1) Being locked away with one’s own thoughts has unlimited consequences. With little stimulation outside of the deficient thought patterns and things of focus, the mind goes in circles. Little is ever new. The habits become engrained and the decay begins, bringing about so many of those harmful, consequential results. Soon, the seclusion becomes a lifestyle. A life … Continue reading My Struggle With Isolation (Part 2)

My Struggle With Isolation (Part 1)

It is no surprise to me, being the introvert that I am, to find myself retreating. Pulling back is not only a true blessing, but can also be a very destructive practice. Retreating is something that I have done from a very early age, and I truly believe it has much to do with being an only child. It also has to do with the … Continue reading My Struggle With Isolation (Part 1)

As The Birds Sing…

Waking to see each new day in the current years has so much more value than it had in years before. The focus of the value of waking has been amplified because of the death that has been surrounding me lately. First, it was the huge fallout with my mother that left me with a ‘dead’ feeling, followed by the physical death of my father. … Continue reading As The Birds Sing…

A Force To Be Reckoned With

I had a friend many years ago who could walk into a room and quiet everyone with his domineering ways. The very presence of him: unbelievably large physique, dark complexion, dark clothing and the attitude comparable to that of a Viking, were very good reasons to move aside as he would enter. Everyone, and I mean everyone, felt intimidated within his company. I witnessed some … Continue reading A Force To Be Reckoned With

Grieving Sucks

Funerals have an unfortunate way of pulling families together. Many times the extended family attends the viewing, paying their respects and offering condolences. My late father’s death brought a few faces out of hiding. My dad’s cousin, which would be my second cousin, was a face I had not seen in over twenty years. He and I were once palling around on a fairly regular … Continue reading Grieving Sucks

Nothing In This World Lasts Forever

It is currently seventeen degrees Fahrenheit outside, and I suspect it feels much colder than that when the wind blows. I’m sitting in front of a little space heater providing comfort for my tired feet. My family is sleeping in our warm home. The hot coffee warms my body. The electric light is dim, yet it provides a nice ambiance for early morning. Somewhere outside, … Continue reading Nothing In This World Lasts Forever

When I Compare Myself To Others (Part 3)

The introduction to meth was not something that I really enjoyed, but it was the new habit. On top of the everyday pot and cigarette habit, I had to have a little corner of a sandwich baggie filled with chemicals. It was the necessary way to go about the day because not having it meant withdrawal and hard crashes. I would go for days at … Continue reading When I Compare Myself To Others (Part 3)