It is the first day of another year, and it is truly a different energy than any other year thus far. The end of the calendar marks the holidays that bring family out of the personal schedule and into gatherings with family and friends. It was so different this now past year for my family and I, at least through my view of it all. … Continue reading For A Day
I’m kind of amazed with the progress that has been made throughout the last few months. It may be something that I continuously write about, but that is just the good feeling shining through. When one learns to overcome the confines that has bound them for a time, why shouldn’t they celebrate? Yesterday proved to be another small victory. Interactions with a variety of people … Continue reading It’s Okay
The past week has served up a lot of different people and their true natures. It has also given me a lot of opportunity to observe how I interact with others. Holidays bring about the many faces, and I believe that this is the first year in a very long time that I will be able to truly deal with all…well, most of what comes … Continue reading A Colorful World
Rubbish. That is what the post was last night. The Christian man pissed me off again last night. He is the one who I have been sort of obsessed with. He and I have had our differences over the years, and when I had shared the same religion, we always seemed to have a way of bunting heads. We were both set in our stubborn … Continue reading Rubbish
It is so draining to have a lot of time with myself, but it is also eye-opening. The past few days have been kind of strange. I realized how much time there is in a full day, and if I don’t have things to fill up the space within the day, my mind will go into deep thought about the situations I cannot really do … Continue reading Deny Thy Self
Wondering why it is so hard for people to accept the way things are outside of what they can change, and why they selfishly want “God” to change it, the following thoughts consume me. What happened in the evolution of man? What convinced the world of needing a god with whiskers in the sky to look to for comforting? It seems to be a terrible … Continue reading I’m Really Powerless Without Faith?
When reading many of the writings of others, a common thread often appears: An escape is necessary. There has been so many roads along this personal journey. The times now behind have brought me to this very moment, and as reflection can be now be observed, I recall such disarray in my youthful ignorance. It was a bad, bad deal. I just didn’t know, as … Continue reading Take Me Away
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There are small gaps in between these words and sentences, much like the spaces in between the thoughts behind them. When I began to write this morning, it occurred to me that my mind has been going through many changes throughout a somewhat short period of time. Several weeks has been an awakening of sorts. I’ve really noticed just how my little mind constantly speaks, … Continue reading In Between Spaces
I’m not sure why so many people these days are taking things to extremes, such as their religious beliefs, political views and opinions. I am not very happy with social media. It seems as though I only hold onto it for the sake of my family. It’s a nice way to stay connected to people who, unfortunately in most cases, have forgotten how to knock … Continue reading Social Distortion
Perspective is so distorted by an individual’s fear, I am finding. For a great majority of my own life, fear played a huge part. It was always there. It had its say no matter what aspect or time period of my youth had manifested. These times are remembered with great vividness. Fortunately, there is a contrast now that looks nothing like those old days. I … Continue reading Considered
A New Year’s resolution will be a goal that many will latch on to in the coming days. Perhaps you will lose the extra pounds, be a better person in some way, save money, et cetera. Although I find it a bit silly to wait until a certain date on a calendar to make a personal change, people are people. I am–right now–going to promise … Continue reading Not This Year!
Wonderfully crafted food for thought is what we Americans seem to thrive upon… Although, it is far from wonderful!! The end-of-year holidays have me indoors for longer periods than usual. I have appreciated the goodness of spending time with my family and resting from labors, but the news has entered my periodic divisions of boredom. Mornings consist of feeding myself the many different views and, … Continue reading Our Peaceful Land
What a sad and cheerless world… I’m getting closer to being done with WordPress. My decision may change in time, but due to most of the posts lacking any sort of inspiration, I’m thinking about hanging it up. The walk along the road lead me to a choice to blog. With Jesus in mind, I began writing about how His provision was/is a part of … Continue reading Better Days Ahead
The morning opened with a familiar sin. Crawling out of bed was quickly greeted by the weak and tired mind being obscured by a sin that I continuously struggle with. It’s not surprising. I know full well just how bad the particular vice I struggle with is, yet I sometimes give in to its tempting pull. It’s no excuse, I know. If we are called … Continue reading Again…
So much sadness fills the hearts of people. No time for the fruits of His Spirit. You know, love, joy, peace, and so on. The opposing is rather forceful, it seems. The demons we possess–both past, present, and anticipated future–contaminate the light, pulling us into those places that no longer exist… Just in our heads. The heart aligns with those places. The opposing is familiar. … Continue reading Now
Out of all the things there are to focus on, people gladly choose the hell of the world. A man whom I have worked with for many years is really showing his true self lately. Every single workday I can hear his troubled voice, backed with his boisterous theories, spreading the negative to others. Twenty, thirty, or possibly even more minutes are spent on his … Continue reading Harassments
What does it do for you, to think on such things– the squander and morose. All the haste that it brings. Nothing is achieved, except the misery you teach. Mundane and jaded. My, the woes you do preach. Does it pay in the end to lose all you’ve gained? That beautiful laughter? The grip you maintained? A challenge has come, and you fold, with a … Continue reading Wasteful Thinking
Pilate asked, “What is truth?” Jesus replied with, “I am.” Yet, they need more than that… Lending God a hand. Move over, God, men have found more to add. They interpret your truth, negating what you had. It’s way more complicated than a simple faith in you. So many educated scholars, telling others what to do. Oh, God, so many men have robbed … Continue reading My God…
Fear is waiting in the shadows, and it patiently watches you. It takes its seat a few chairs down. You go on without a clue. Closely, it observes your routine. It studies your schedule. It has an endless time to plan ahead, never losing its cool. It uses tools that you feed upon, like the devices you willingly watch. It uses the writings upon your … Continue reading The Feed
Her need for excitement has no bounds–no limitations. Each night, the liquor provides for her… Tantalizing sensations. Painted face, powdered nose. Fragrance of flower. She hits the city for a night of needs. For the moment, empowered. Dancing around, drowning in the cocktails of apathy. Her prophecy, fulfilled. She scans the room for the body — masculine and thrilled. Darkness and desire. The guilt … Continue reading Carried
We used to live for the party. My friends and I would make it a point to find anything that would alter the mind and body. A bottle of booze, low-quality, mid or high-grade weed, powders in baggies that were, hopefully, what the dealer had said they were. Anything to numb. Anything to excite. Drugs and alcohol weren’t the only things that would get us … Continue reading High On Our Hell
So many opinions, so little time, to see the individuality– what is yours, what is mine. Streamline the masses– tell them they’re wrong when the speak a different language or sing a different song. Opinions are not optional to the one who’s talking down in a condescending manner to the one who stands their ground. The proud man walks ahead and waits for the next … Continue reading Take A Look
Hold onto that thing that you think that you must have Be passionate about the grip on the things that you will grab Hold tightly to the wreckage and the tricks of the mind Don’t look for the ways out or solutions you may find Get comfortable in your madness Stay there in your excuse Be the one in the shelter of self-pity and abuse … Continue reading Coddling
The mind can destroy a man as it sits idle The voice it produces begins as a whisper gaining speed– now, as loud as the tornado tearing through the moment ripping through the shelter: the one the mind believed could withstand it all… Fill it with noise. Stimulate it with these things you find: Temporary whispers Fleeting tornadoes Welcomed torments Say goodbye to … Continue reading Fragility
Why do some heal while others never learn? Why do some desire change while others ignore concern? Is it a lack of confidence or a comfort they enjoy? Do they happily welcome the sadness that will ultimately destroy? How long must one go on before change becomes a need? Is fear the underlying issue that takes a willing lead? Do they say, “Go ahead… I’m … Continue reading In The Face Of Fear
The Lord created our brains, and this life destroys it. Here’s a little bit of knowledge to help with understanding the complicated mind. https://www.calmclinic.com/anxiety/symptoms/bad-thoughts Continue reading What Do You Think About?
Management is a great and necessary thing. I work for a fairly small company, and within that company, there are individuals who hold managerial positions. They have certain tasks to perform, people to supervise and decisions to make. They are the overseers of the people that hold positions in certain departments. These individuals have been appointed because they have been considered as qualified for the … Continue reading When Will You Manage?
May I interrupt your constant need to dwell upon the pain Yes, your misery loves the company please don’t tell me again You enjoy the things of sorrow I know… you’ve said it loud and clear Tell me something else today something you don’t want to hear I’ll open the door of the prison that is nothing but a space a place inside … Continue reading If I May?
Sitting silent in the shadow comfortable in the disease Panicked in the peacefulness no real reason for unease Pass a day within a confine ‘better off’ you calmly say No real reason to have faith in you after failing in your way If change means looking further from the complacent view you hold then taking small steps forward may only limit what could unfold Your … Continue reading Progress In Motion
You count the sins you see the death that they bring It makes you look down upon yourself and others as you ‘joyously’ sing You punish yourself you throw yourself down at the altar begging and pleading You are prayed over babbling and believing then, told to catch up on your reading It’s time to feel terrible again time for the preacher to … Continue reading Front and Center
The habit of dwelling on the negatives was a daily necessity; an absolute need. For the great majority of my life, I had to remain focused on the limitations. If any sort of possibility presented itself, I would quickly shoot it down. I sit this morning and remember a time in my personal life when my self-esteem had me in the clinches of shame. The … Continue reading Digging Our Own Hole
The following is an excerpt from the Christian-based book: Overcoming Anxiety, Worry And Fear by Dr. Gregory L. Jantz and Ann Mc Murray. If you suffer from any of the three, or a combination of, I highly recommend the book. It is a book I have referenced, recommended and gifted for the past three years. It is a great aid in learning how to overcome … Continue reading Don’t Give Up
When you speak to yourself, what is said? Is a disease your definition? Perhaps an addiction? Is the stigma a continuous part of your life? Why do people hold onto what once was, but at the current moment, no longer is? Why is a diagnosis all that is glorified within a life? Is there no hope after a label is placed upon you? Why do … Continue reading What Is Found?
You have probably seen the free literature at the buildings of worship. Those little books that contain a collection of verses from the Bible. Each day one can read a verse and a short story that goes along with the verse. As I was attending one of those places in former years, I would pick up those little books and read a daily devotion nearly … Continue reading Daily Devotion
I had an experience at a secular A.A. meeting that truly worried me. When reciting the so-called ‘serenity prayer’ during the end of the meeting, I sensed a very evil presence. I now know that it was because of the false gods being glorified within the large group. I actually sensed the evil within the joined-hand circle. It is the second time I have sensed … Continue reading Recovery Programs: Heresy, Idolatry and Lies
There once was a time when I had to wait for the results of a blood test that I had done. I was ordered by my doctor to give blood in order to have it examined. The testing would show whether or not I had, what would be, a very life-changing disease. It was also possible that I could have had more than one disease. … Continue reading In Between