If You Don’t…

It was a bad night. Some very frightening events, that now lie still this morning thankfully, were another reminder of just how quickly our lives can become something that is completely unsettling. The last few weeks have changed me. Yes, the dross metaphor my father had once talked about—those life changing moments that are skimmed away revealing a different perspective beneath, or within—has been evident … Continue reading If You Don’t…

Time Ago

There was a time this morning where our cat sat on my lap while purring. She has this habit of sitting there when the first cup of coffee is poured and I’m perched on the barstool. We enjoy each other’s company. While she purred and sat in peaceful relaxation, it struck me. I thought back on all that has passed away. People, other pets, even … Continue reading Time Ago

I Woke Up

After listening to Mr. Alan Watts tonight, it is evident to me that what the last few weeks have illuminated is a direct reflection of what he had spoken of. There have been times throughout those weeks of mine, involving a handful of certain individuals, that have served up the evidence to back up the words I’d heard from Mr. Watts tonight. And to save … Continue reading I Woke Up

Whatever

The days are being challenged by a lingering, deeply rooted, intense and frustrating emotional attachment. My mom is killing me. Literally, it seems to be taking the life from me. It is not a constant ordeal, because suppressing it is what my brain is doing in order to keep going with the peace that I’m determined to remain in. But that brain of mine, well, … Continue reading Whatever

Someone’s Nonsense

The day is already off to an uncomfortable start, because I went to bed last night feeling awful and now I’m sick. It’s been a while since I’ve been under the weather and it’s also been a while since I’ve written anything. Guess I’ll take the time to do so since moving sounds like something I’d rather not do today. This blog and the WordPress … Continue reading Someone’s Nonsense

Greater Day Wanted

The personal ways I sometimes choose leads me to different paths that are part of the experience, and I like to reflect while the emotions do their thing. I’m at a place of peace, because knowing how the emotions work and why/how they go on wild rides periodically has opened up the place many try to find, sometimes for a lifetime. Seeing how the world … Continue reading Greater Day Wanted

A Made Man

There seems to be a situation I run into a lot with people, and it is a sure thing that I’ve had to dig deep in order to acknowledge within myself. It is the way people end up not being what we want them to be, even though we seem to think they should be, and how we become an emotional disaster because of it. … Continue reading A Made Man

What A Gig It Is!

Weekends are somewhat not busy for the majority of the time, and being a laborer throughout the week, well, that is just fine with me. If I can just relax and do things I enjoy for a while, then the refresh button seems to make life much easier come Monday. Friday night began with a painting session, which I’m now obsessed with, and I crafted … Continue reading What A Gig It Is!

The Identity Dissolve

I had a hard time yesterday with a decision. Probably one of the biggest challenges I’ve had in months. But it was through the final decision made that I felt the pull, while then challenging myself to make it through. This particular thing that was poking at me was something that had been prevalent in years before–once again it reared its ugly yet tempting head. … Continue reading The Identity Dissolve

I Choose Happiness

My mother and I sat down to our weekly lunch meetup at the local diner. Her bad news was even worse than the last time we had met up. For a woman pushing seventy, she is not that happy about her soon to be finalized divorce. There is nothing we can do for my mom. She has to handle the days as they go. She … Continue reading I Choose Happiness

A Bigger Picture

I stood in the living room and observed the details within our family photos. The memories were all there. Some distorted and forgotten. Many smiles had arrived. It was the jar of seashells from Florida and the two photos from different trips to Gatlinburg that made me feel the gratitude for all that life offers us. The photos from our wedding and the joy within … Continue reading A Bigger Picture

Wisdom To Share

The following link is a masterpiece that is a beautiful reflection of three individuals over 100 years old. May we all learn from them! https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9AThycGCakk&feature=share&fbclid=IwAR0XBI2HhugzG-5NR4tGlSqXatrkQOeB8LyLxkWyRys2fhpZ8iUjyAkEyrw Continue reading Wisdom To Share

Ask The Ducks

It is a wonderful place to cycle in the neighboring city. My love for biking has always centered around the many streets and foot trails near the heart of the metropolis where I was raised. I love living in my wife’s town where she grew up but continuing to make trips into the city to ride is something that I like to do. It is … Continue reading Ask The Ducks

Accept!

In all of life, we have to completely accept what comes about. Yes. You heard it right. WE HAVE TO ACCEPT. In any situation we have an option: We have our opinion, educated guess, intuition or factual decision, so step up and accept your result! And remember that life is not designed to work with you, but directly against you! If one doesn’t learn this, … Continue reading Accept!

Binary

I used to see the dark of night as a place to hide my battles. A blanket of comfortable absence for the absent joy. Void of color, visual stimulation and value where solitude made a home. If the rain had fallen, a reflective shimmer would arise, granted light did appear. Black glass on streets of sorrows; deceptive thoughts of promising tomorrows. Hiding in a canopy … Continue reading Binary

A Few Good Men

A rule that seems to surround masculinity is the necessity of not showing too much emotion, especially if it is one of love, compassion or empathy. My dad was probably the hardest person I knew. He had the typical attitude a lot of cops carry. A hard man, from what I remember. It wasn’t a surprise, now that I’ve grown older and seen what the … Continue reading A Few Good Men

For A Day

It is the first day of another year, and it is truly a different energy than any other year thus far. The end of the calendar marks the holidays that bring family out of the personal schedule and into gatherings with family and friends. It was so different this now past year for my family and I, at least through my view of it all. … Continue reading For A Day

A Proper Burial

Something useful was brought to my attention a few days ago. It was a statement made by a man that touched on the fact of everyone eventually dying. I can’t remember the exact words, but I do recall the thoughts I had. The progressive collection of my personal experiences after pondering his words brought me to a place of peace and humbleness, and this morning … Continue reading A Proper Burial

It’s Okay

I’m kind of amazed with the progress that has been made throughout the last few months. It may be something that I continuously write about, but that is just the good feeling shining through. When one learns to overcome the confines that has bound them for a time, why shouldn’t they celebrate? Yesterday proved to be another small victory. Interactions with a variety of people … Continue reading It’s Okay

Remaining

The plants around our home are now withered. When I was very young my grandfather and I once visited his Aunt Lena. She was a very frail old woman who lived by herself just east of my grandparents’ home. I remember a Spring–the sun was overhead, as I can remember the shadows of my grandpa and myself being cast upon the clay as he was … Continue reading Remaining

A Colorful World

The past week has served up a lot of different people and their true natures. It has also given me a lot of opportunity to observe how I interact with others. Holidays bring about the many faces, and I believe that this is the first year in a very long time that I will be able to truly deal with all…well, most of what comes … Continue reading A Colorful World

Do The Animals Compare Like Humans?

I sometimes hold the kitties to the mirror just to see what their reaction will be. It usually goes down in a way that is not like my own. A short glance is all that I see them do. Maybe they see themselves? Maybe they see another cat? Don’t know. I can’t ask, and we don’t speak the same language. The new way of seeing … Continue reading Do The Animals Compare Like Humans?

All Is Well

If it weren’t for acceptance, I don’t know what each day would be like? Looking back on an old post this morning had a way of showing me a change in myself. When it comes to the approval of my audience, I find myself not really caring anymore. In the earlier writings, there was a focus that many would find interesting, for the simple fact … Continue reading All Is Well

A Matter of Fact

Saturday mornings often seem to be a time of reflection, especially the first few minutes upon waking. I sat in the kitchen staring out of the window while thinking about the many moments that have collected throughout the past week or so. There were so many “ways” that I recaptured as I stared hard into the treetops outside. Ways. It is the ways in which … Continue reading A Matter of Fact

Always Dead. Always.

I wonder what it is that convinces one to hang on to pain, even though he or she knows that it isn’t helping matters? It was always different than it is now, before I began to live in the present. How unaware I was—even though I reflected on a pain from the past, I was doing it in the present moment, which is truly the … Continue reading Always Dead. Always.

I Am – A Poem/Meditation by Rupert Spira

I amI have no words to express Myself but all words express only MeI have no meaning but impart meaning to all that is perceivedI am without beginning and end but all things begin and end in MeI have no name but am called by all namesI have no form but all form indicates MeI have no origin but am the origin of all thingsI … Continue reading I Am – A Poem/Meditation by Rupert Spira

In A Time

The Vince Guaraldi Trio version of Christmas Time Is Here once made me shed tears of sorrow when hearing it. I lost my grandfather in December of 2000. He was the man who I looked at as my true father. It was tough watching him slowly wither during that winter. While being sad because of grandmother’s recent passing, as well as watching grandpa suffer from … Continue reading In A Time

Thanks

I give thanks for the terrible situations. This morning is a dark and rainy one. The water is showering on the tin roof attached to the back portion of our home. I sit and write within shelter as the calming rain beats down on the metal, and it somehow reminds me of times that were devastating. Those little misunderstood triggers that bring about memories of … Continue reading Thanks

Little Me

Sometimes the thought of being me makes me cringe. How many times have the streams of thoughts been focused on the many dimensions of me? Too many, that’s the number. It is so stupid anymore. I have these days of self analysis that leave me completely worn. One of those days being today. The thoughts that I observe are constantly being criticized by me today. … Continue reading Little Me

Firmly Gripped

The experiences of a life gone by have surely made me who and what I am in the present moment. I made a comment on a fellow blogger’s post last night, and now I’m thinking they took it the wrong way. That is what happens in the blogging world. We type out a few words and send them on their way. Very little to study, … Continue reading Firmly Gripped

Falling Back

The progression of the setting sun really had me realize just how much truth there is to only having the present moment, and all other moments only being in the thoughts we have. Last night was a great experience here in the Ohio valley. The golden Autumn hue resided upon all of the magnificent colors that we find throughout Indiana. The reds and rusts are … Continue reading Falling Back

How The Water Reflects

People who aren’t honest with themselves sure don’t make for good acquaintances, friends or lovers. The weekend was a bit longer since it actually began this past Wednesday for me. It was nice to have the extra days off from the labors at work. My Wednesday began with a few hours at the lake. Even though I didn’t catch any fish, the simple joy of … Continue reading How The Water Reflects

Brass Tacks

The introspection has lessons to teach if we allow it to do so. I’ve been fortunate the last few days, and it is through the pain that I’ve come to a few realizations. My work schedule has been put on hold for five days. While listening to music and spending some time reflecting on the many facets of my life, I’ve concluded a few facts. … Continue reading Brass Tacks

Pulled From Within

Picking up a children’s book from the shelf this morning while dusting, I noticed the title of the book that contained the words, “Daily Devotions.” My curiosity led me to a page within it that illustrated a child looking up into the sky and apologizing to God for doing something wrong. While sitting in front of the book shelf with the thought still swimming around, … Continue reading Pulled From Within

Thinking Of You

“You have to take the good with the bad.” I remember a friend of mine saying this many years ago. There is no telling what the situation was at the time that served as the reason why he had said it to me, but the simplistic truth of his statement still resonates. There was a big life-altering situation that occurred last night. I sat outside … Continue reading Thinking Of You

The Fallible Form We Know

The last few days have been a challenge, but isn’t that what this life is anyway? Long story very short, the build up of intolerance towards a very unnecessary habit of another led to me going off on them. I had enough of an individual making fun of every person we are both acquainted with. The habit–one exactly like my own in the past–was effecting … Continue reading The Fallible Form We Know

Flat Earthers

It was interesting to see so many truths unfold just by observing others within the last few weeks. Nothing needed to be said to them, for any dispute or correction that could have been offered would have caused a defense. I’ve found that persuasion is becoming so prominent anymore, and while listening to the voices of several in recent days, the deceptive manipulation is warping … Continue reading Flat Earthers

Fade

A friend is being taken off of life support today. I can’t help but wonder why we cannot forgive the past—both our own mistakes and those of others. The man going away today had so many reasons why my ego wouldn’t allow him to be a little closer in the latter days. I couldn’t handle his substance abuse. Yet, I sit and think about my … Continue reading Fade

Energy

I sat this evening with many different energies at work within their spaces, and I realized that we are of that same energy. The science doesn’t matter, but whatever creates our energy surely fills our space with a grandeur that is always in motion. It shall all be enjoyed, indeed. Continue reading Energy

Pardoned

Bitterness was always something that I was accustomed to, but thanks to other bitter people, I’m now realizing why that was. In the recent weeks exchanges with others has tested my patience on several levels. Practicing the pause: a moment of consciously comprehending what is involved within an exchange and not reacting / responding while emotion is welling, has not been easy. However, the constant … Continue reading Pardoned