Time Ago

There was a time this morning where our cat sat on my lap while purring. She has this habit of sitting there when the first cup of coffee is poured and I’m perched on the barstool. We enjoy each other’s company. While she purred and sat in peaceful relaxation, it struck me. I thought back on all that has passed away. People, other pets, even … Continue reading Time Ago

Whatever

The days are being challenged by a lingering, deeply rooted, intense and frustrating emotional attachment. My mom is killing me. Literally, it seems to be taking the life from me. It is not a constant ordeal, because suppressing it is what my brain is doing in order to keep going with the peace that I’m determined to remain in. But that brain of mine, well, … Continue reading Whatever

Someone’s Nonsense

The day is already off to an uncomfortable start, because I went to bed last night feeling awful and now I’m sick. It’s been a while since I’ve been under the weather and it’s also been a while since I’ve written anything. Guess I’ll take the time to do so since moving sounds like something I’d rather not do today. This blog and the WordPress … Continue reading Someone’s Nonsense

Foul Taste

A comment I had heard yesterday had me thinking about the way I’ve looked at others throughout the majority of my life. That way being with quick judgment, very unfair judgment. It was evident to me based on the wording he used to describe another–one man had spoken to another in a manner that was imperious, even though he had no right to tell the … Continue reading Foul Taste

Wisdom To Share

The following link is a masterpiece that is a beautiful reflection of three individuals over 100 years old. May we all learn from them! https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9AThycGCakk&feature=share&fbclid=IwAR0XBI2HhugzG-5NR4tGlSqXatrkQOeB8LyLxkWyRys2fhpZ8iUjyAkEyrw Continue reading Wisdom To Share

The Lost Worldlies

People sure do get themselves into some very strange situations. I had a friend who would collect junk, and it didn’t matter what kind of junk it was. I’m sure he is still doing it. What could he possibly do with a used toilet seat or hundreds of axe handles? I never saw the inside of his house, but I can only assume it is … Continue reading The Lost Worldlies

Flypaper

Those coiled, sticky strips that are hung in homes are effective, but they sure are gross! I was an exterminator for a period of time and used to see a lot of people using the eyesores. Growing up my grandma loved to smack them with the swatter. SPLAT! She seemed to enjoy it. Spread the bug guts on surfaces, or watch them slowly die on … Continue reading Flypaper

Accept!

In all of life, we have to completely accept what comes about. Yes. You heard it right. WE HAVE TO ACCEPT. In any situation we have an option: We have our opinion, educated guess, intuition or factual decision, so step up and accept your result! And remember that life is not designed to work with you, but directly against you! If one doesn’t learn this, … Continue reading Accept!

Binary

I used to see the dark of night as a place to hide my battles. A blanket of comfortable absence for the absent joy. Void of color, visual stimulation and value where solitude made a home. If the rain had fallen, a reflective shimmer would arise, granted light did appear. Black glass on streets of sorrows; deceptive thoughts of promising tomorrows. Hiding in a canopy … Continue reading Binary

A Few Good Men

A rule that seems to surround masculinity is the necessity of not showing too much emotion, especially if it is one of love, compassion or empathy. My dad was probably the hardest person I knew. He had the typical attitude a lot of cops carry. A hard man, from what I remember. It wasn’t a surprise, now that I’ve grown older and seen what the … Continue reading A Few Good Men

You Win

It has been in my head lately that most people have a desire to one up the universe. The natural flow of things is somewhat difficult to put into words in context to what I mean by the desire to get it over on the universe. Simplistically, I can say that humans need to feel comfortable while facing the unknown. I thought about this all … Continue reading You Win

It’s Okay

I’m kind of amazed with the progress that has been made throughout the last few months. It may be something that I continuously write about, but that is just the good feeling shining through. When one learns to overcome the confines that has bound them for a time, why shouldn’t they celebrate? Yesterday proved to be another small victory. Interactions with a variety of people … Continue reading It’s Okay

A Colorful World

The past week has served up a lot of different people and their true natures. It has also given me a lot of opportunity to observe how I interact with others. Holidays bring about the many faces, and I believe that this is the first year in a very long time that I will be able to truly deal with all…well, most of what comes … Continue reading A Colorful World

Do The Animals Compare Like Humans?

I sometimes hold the kitties to the mirror just to see what their reaction will be. It usually goes down in a way that is not like my own. A short glance is all that I see them do. Maybe they see themselves? Maybe they see another cat? Don’t know. I can’t ask, and we don’t speak the same language. The new way of seeing … Continue reading Do The Animals Compare Like Humans?

With So Much

My friend Jeff was a beautiful soul and a kindred spirit. His simplicity towards life was something I admired. Even though I never asked him very detailed questions about why he’d chosen to live his life the way he did, I gathered my own assumptions. That was good enough for me at the time. Jeff was a man I had known since my childhood. I … Continue reading With So Much

I Am – A Poem/Meditation by Rupert Spira

I amI have no words to express Myself but all words express only MeI have no meaning but impart meaning to all that is perceivedI am without beginning and end but all things begin and end in MeI have no name but am called by all namesI have no form but all form indicates MeI have no origin but am the origin of all thingsI … Continue reading I Am – A Poem/Meditation by Rupert Spira

In A Time

The Vince Guaraldi Trio version of Christmas Time Is Here once made me shed tears of sorrow when hearing it. I lost my grandfather in December of 2000. He was the man who I looked at as my true father. It was tough watching him slowly wither during that winter. While being sad because of grandmother’s recent passing, as well as watching grandpa suffer from … Continue reading In A Time

Rubbish

Rubbish. That is what the post was last night. The Christian man pissed me off again last night. He is the one who I have been sort of obsessed with. He and I have had our differences over the years, and when I had shared the same religion, we always seemed to have a way of bunting heads. We were both set in our stubborn … Continue reading Rubbish

Little Me

Sometimes the thought of being me makes me cringe. How many times have the streams of thoughts been focused on the many dimensions of me? Too many, that’s the number. It is so stupid anymore. I have these days of self analysis that leave me completely worn. One of those days being today. The thoughts that I observe are constantly being criticized by me today. … Continue reading Little Me

I’m Really Powerless Without Faith?

Wondering why it is so hard for people to accept the way things are outside of what they can change, and why they selfishly want “God” to change it, the following thoughts consume me. What happened in the evolution of man? What convinced the world of needing a god with whiskers in the sky to look to for comforting? It seems to be a terrible … Continue reading I’m Really Powerless Without Faith?

How The Water Reflects

People who aren’t honest with themselves sure don’t make for good acquaintances, friends or lovers. The weekend was a bit longer since it actually began this past Wednesday for me. It was nice to have the extra days off from the labors at work. My Wednesday began with a few hours at the lake. Even though I didn’t catch any fish, the simple joy of … Continue reading How The Water Reflects

Ashes To Ashes

The life I once lived has a way of creeping back into my life when it is addressed by others. It is probably safe to say that all people have parts of their lives that they would rather forget about. A brief conversation with someone I love touched on things from days that are no longer here. Yet, like most, it was clear that the … Continue reading Ashes To Ashes

Pulled From Within

Picking up a children’s book from the shelf this morning while dusting, I noticed the title of the book that contained the words, “Daily Devotions.” My curiosity led me to a page within it that illustrated a child looking up into the sky and apologizing to God for doing something wrong. While sitting in front of the book shelf with the thought still swimming around, … Continue reading Pulled From Within

You Were Here…

A woman who seems to be deeply scarred by men from her past had me thinking about the people from my own past this evening. I tend to read the posts from the other bloggers I follow more so on the weekends. In a late night surf through the followed sites, I ran across another one of her writings. She seems to spend a lot … Continue reading You Were Here…

Closure

After some thought about this morning’s post, I’ve decided to keep the blog up and running. There was a great deal of fatigue earlier in the day. The evening before was a rough one for me. I didn’t sleep well last night, and the tired mind had a lot of pull on the early day’s writing. I spend so much of my time consumed with … Continue reading Closure

Rehash

I don’t like some of the truths about myself. There is a whole blog that I created here that looks back on the past; all of the conditioning that created the monster I am. All of those failures and flaws that, in my thirties, caused me to see a god of judgment. The good Lord was a just spirit, or man, or both, and he … Continue reading Rehash

Mr. Emotion

The sheer ridiculousness of the human mind has been the topic this evening. Of course, the choice to read through WordPress followed sites led me to the writing here tonight. By choice, I’m unloading some harbored thoughts. It helps to get things out once in a while. Since no one else is here, and since the keyboard is, I am going to share my thoughts … Continue reading Mr. Emotion

No Guarantee

There is a blogger who likes to conclude his posts with the words, “Something to think about.” It is a religious blog. Each week the posts are sent out into cyber space and arrive, like this one, in front of an audience to be analyzed. The recipients then have the chance to agree, reject, or remain neutral after digesting the writing. The something to think … Continue reading No Guarantee

Flat Earthers

It was interesting to see so many truths unfold just by observing others within the last few weeks. Nothing needed to be said to them, for any dispute or correction that could have been offered would have caused a defense. I’ve found that persuasion is becoming so prominent anymore, and while listening to the voices of several in recent days, the deceptive manipulation is warping … Continue reading Flat Earthers

Lights

It was another arduous work week, but the end of Friday was an enjoyable time out on the many streets within the city. I brought the bike with me and cycled for just shy of two hours. Today, it is being felt. The noticeable healing process has slowed in the current run of my decay, but yet I still find myself being in much better … Continue reading Lights

Blind To Isness

The happening of the stars The happening of the blue in the sky we do observe with our optical view The happening of the heart The happening of the mind that scurries about continuously to judge what it will find The happening of an ego The happening of its lie The one that insists one must suffer before he or she must die The happening … Continue reading Blind To Isness

Oh, God!

It occurred to me today that writing is just another form of identifying myself. At this time, even though I recognize the blog as an extension of my ego, I will keep the platform up and running. Although, it is not something that I absolutely must have like it had been at first. Just a few years ago the belief of needing a place to … Continue reading Oh, God!

Your Calm Beneath

In hindsight, the quest for understanding God had really screwed me up. My mother and I had a treacherous conversation the other day. It sometimes ends up being a disaster, and it’s usually my fault. It is difficult for me to listen to a miserable and repetitive cycle of thought patterns that are conveyed in the same series of words nearly every time I meet … Continue reading Your Calm Beneath

Is The Boy, “Saved?”

Identification seems to be instilled from a young age. At the time of receiving a given name and understanding that we are to be addressed as that name moving forward, we identify ourselves with a title. It was a another long hot week here in the Ohio Valley. Rains late within the week brought cooler temperatures and people out of their air-conditioned places yesterday evening. … Continue reading Is The Boy, “Saved?”

No More

There are a few people on WordPress that have not only contributed to the evaluation of my own faith in God, but also to how and what I believe about a divine Creator. I think it’s safe to say that the Bible is not a reliable source for understanding the universe and the many, many unanswered questions I have. According to one blogger, even though … Continue reading No More

Unrest

It’s interesting to notice how most of what we call life is only experienced through the senses. I was studying an old photo of my wife’s extended family on the bookshelf today. The men wear the butterfly collars of the era while the women have the typical hair-dos. In the background, an artificial backyard setting of a home–not theirs–provides a quintessential feel for their captured … Continue reading Unrest