Forgotten

A man sat on the floor with his head in his hands trying to avoid the one who wouldn’t be still His paranoia was getting the best of him as the other danced before receiving his pill The mental ward was next to silent that morning but the voices in his head were screaming He just wanted those people to leave him alone Auditory hallucinations … Continue reading Forgotten

Nothing Left

The boy of the past who lived in a home where comforts were seldom and while left alone he’d cry for his mother who stayed out all night after her shift she’d head for the light of houses tucked away in the cities and towns to smoke up her poison and then run around a little bit longer to hit up the bars laughing and … Continue reading Nothing Left

Rooted In Decay

What caused you to feel that way? So often, you speak of the misery. Is it worth the limited time you have here to dwell on your ancient history? Right now, the time is right to reflect, but not live in a place that your mind wanders to all too often; the place where you refuse to forgive. The wound upon your heart is bleeding … Continue reading Rooted In Decay

A Refusal To Move

There are times when idleness within my life can become very destructive. It’s an ongoing battle I’ve dealt with for a great portion of my adult life. The following link is titled, Here Is Why Your Anxiety Is Getting Worse. I found it to be a great source of information, especially since I have an ongoing tendency to practice some of the patterns and bad … Continue reading A Refusal To Move

My Struggle With Isolation (Part 2)

Link to My Struggle With Isolation (Part 1) Being locked away with one’s own thoughts has unlimited consequences. With little stimulation outside of the deficient thought patterns and things of focus, the mind goes in circles. Little is ever new. The habits become engrained and the decay begins, bringing about so many of those harmful, consequential results. Soon, the seclusion becomes a lifestyle. A life … Continue reading My Struggle With Isolation (Part 2)

My Struggle With Isolation (Part 1)

It is no surprise to me, being the introvert that I am, to find myself retreating. Pulling back is not only a true blessing, but can also be a very destructive practice. Retreating is something that I have done from a very early age, and I truly believe it has much to do with being an only child. It also has to do with the … Continue reading My Struggle With Isolation (Part 1)

The Walking Dead

Sometimes I see dead people walking among us. No, I’m not talking about the spirits of the dead, or demons, or figments of my imagination. Not a hallucination or a symptom deriving from a mental disorder. I am talking about the living and functioning human being. Already dead, on his or her feet. I have an acquaintance who is filling himself with harmful things. A … Continue reading The Walking Dead

What, Me Worry?

Several things that could easily steal my joy of this life are currently hanging over our household. Serious, potentially life-changing issues. I am constantly reassuring my wife that everything is going to be okay, but she still worries. That is just how she is. I actually admire that about her. She has a very caring heart and the worry is for the benefit of her … Continue reading What, Me Worry?

“I’m Not Changing!!”

“Not listening.” Something I have struggled with throughout my life. Purposely shutting my ears off. Shutting people out. Not wanting to hear the other person. As I’m growing older, I find myself at times wandering off as I’m listening to others speak. My brain begins to focus on a thought and I totally miss what I was trying to hear. I need to work on … Continue reading “I’m Not Changing!!”

The Power Of Meditation

Just to clarify, I’m not talking about sitting on the floor, legs crossed with index fingers and thumbs together. I’m speaking of meditating on His Word. Today, I would like to talk about my personal experience with meditation. There was a very painful time in my life that involved my wife and children leaving our home. Several years ago, my mind was comparable to a … Continue reading The Power Of Meditation

Presently Within

If you have been reading my posts lately, you have seen the writings about the therapy sessions I have been attending with a loved one. We had another session this past Thursday. I would like to share some key lessons we both have learned within our time together. For anonymity purposes, I will only refer to the person as my loved one. My loved one … Continue reading Presently Within

My Morning Cup

Mornings are so very important. Before my family wakes, I spend my quiet time at the kitchen bar. There was a time when I would rise for the day and go straight to the shower. Those days, before I had met coffee. I would do everything in a rush in the morning. Shower, get ready, out the door with a daily routine of fast food … Continue reading My Morning Cup

He Restores My Soul…

Do you ever recognize the mess that you create? I am recognizing mine this morning. Yesterday is the time when I rest. The work week is very strenuous and requires many long hours of physical labor. Saturdays are my day of doing as little as possible. Within my day of rest, many things still take place. I read, write, meditate, relax in my comfortable chair, … Continue reading He Restores My Soul…