Carried

Her need for excitement has no bounds–no limitations. Each night, the liquor provides for her… Tantalizing sensations. Painted face, powdered nose. Fragrance of flower. She hits the city for a night of needs. For the moment, empowered. Dancing around, drowning in the cocktails of apathy. Her prophecy, fulfilled. She scans the room for the body — masculine and thrilled.   Darkness and desire. The guilt … Continue reading Carried

High On Our Hell

We used to live for the party. My friends and I would make it a point to find anything that would alter the mind and body. A bottle of booze, low-quality, mid or high-grade weed, powders in baggies that were, hopefully, what the dealer had said they were. Anything to numb. Anything to excite. Drugs and alcohol weren’t the only things that would get us … Continue reading High On Our Hell

Psalm 73:26

When you are blessed, the world seems at ease, and when you are not, the stressors increase. Wonderful life when things are okay, but a punch in the gut begins slow decay. Count all your blessings… SHUT UP! You’re not me! The neighbor you love is blind and can’t see how the pain is now growing inward — and quick. They offer a suggestion, but … Continue reading Psalm 73:26

Becoming

What a difference it makes to wake up with an attitude of gratitude. I had shared a caption on social media yesterday that reads, “Don’t wait for things to get better. Life will always be complicated. Learn to be happy right now, otherwise you’ll run out of time.” As I’m waking up this morning, I am taking the time to remember the truth of these … Continue reading Becoming

The Weight

You fret in your worry over something you’d done. The choice you had made wins the race that you run. You hate yourself now. “I’m no longer worthy”, you claim. “Look at what I’ve caused…” Each day is the same. Time for the tasks, but you wallow in despair. Self-pity is the norm in the life you prepare. Children to raise, shopping to do, but … Continue reading The Weight

The Reality Of A Man

Broken windshield and burned out taillights Punched in walls and empty pockets No money for food, just for booze Morning is here What misery can he find? Maybe a negative thought to brighten his day Perhaps a scratch off to cry about after instant loss The world is to blame!!!! Misfortune will come tomorrow Again, and again Nothing to win over a day of peace … Continue reading The Reality Of A Man

“Life just sucks” – My Journey

A previous writing of mine. Not that I feel that life sucks right now, but things sometimes change, making life a drag. The post is for the broken. It is for those who are at a point in their lives where affliction has taken control. Take heart: God is always with you! https://my-journey-online.com/2018/09/27/sometimes-life-just-sucks/ Continue reading “Life just sucks” – My Journey

A Faith in Recovery | Minute by Minute — Ex-Narnian

I’m one of those people who regularly struggle with the basics. Whether it’s faith foundations or life skills, I feel as if the things about the human condition that come so easily to people are a foreign language to me—and I don’t always comprendo. That said, one truth is finally making a lot of sense […] via A Faith in Recovery | Minute by Minute — … Continue reading A Faith in Recovery | Minute by Minute — Ex-Narnian

For The Love Of Lust

“For the love of God, I am doing what I should do. I am reading His Word, listening to His Spirit, going to church on Sundays, and when Wednesdays come, I’ll be there. I’m doing it right.” Is that so? What about the constant lusts? Looking at all of those women on the porn site while your wife is away. The gambling habit that leaves … Continue reading For The Love Of Lust

Slap A Label On It

I grew up eating Campbell’s soup. Many different kinds. Each kind of soup contains different combinations of ingredients. They never change. Chicken noodle always tastes the same. Beef vegetable always tastes the same. It may vary a slight bit based on the amount of water that is added to the condensed mixture, but for the most part, it remains the same. Campbell’s has to keep … Continue reading Slap A Label On It

The Harboring

A young man walked into a bad situation one afternoon as he was confronted with an item found within the pocket of his pants. His grandmother was emptying the pockets before placing the pants in the washer. The item was used for something illegal. The young man’s grandfather waited until the boy had woken up from another night of partying before asking about the item. … Continue reading The Harboring

A Dreamlike State

Acceptance of things that are not real. A nonsensical, delusional way of viewing the world. I woke this morning to an alarm which sounded at 4:20 A.M. My wife had been up for a few minutes prior and quickly cracked a joke, saying, “Is it time for you to smoke a joint?” It took me a minute to realize what she had meant, but the … Continue reading A Dreamlike State

As Far As The East Is From The West

The many things that we believe about ourselves and the world can limit the fullness of the Lord within us. I was attending a recovery program for a few months. The title, “Celebrate Recovery” was something I had not known as I was brought to the door of the meeting by a man I had gone to junior high school with. Jerry and I were … Continue reading As Far As The East Is From The West

Recovery Programs: Heresy, Idolatry and Lies

I had an experience at a secular A.A. meeting that truly worried me. When reciting the so-called ‘serenity prayer’ during the end of the meeting, I sensed a very evil presence. I now know that it was because of the false gods being glorified within the large group. I actually sensed the evil within the joined-hand circle. It is the second time I have sensed … Continue reading Recovery Programs: Heresy, Idolatry and Lies