My Faith Made Me Crazy

There was much to repent of. A time, not long ago, which laid the truth of my life out before me, exposing the very real and very factual ways of who I was, had me on my knees and begging for forgiveness. It had me killing myself. Each morning, I would wake up to another day of inadequacies. Another day of feeling like I was … Continue reading My Faith Made Me Crazy

For The Love Of Lust

“For the love of God, I am doing what I should do. I am reading His Word, listening to His Spirit, going to church on Sundays, and when Wednesdays come, I’ll be there. I’m doing it right.” Is that so? What about the constant lusts? Looking at all of those women on the porn site while your wife is away. The gambling habit that leaves … Continue reading For The Love Of Lust

Just Another Day

Today, I am turning another year older. Yay, me…I guess? My family has made arrangements for they and I to go to a local restaurant and celebrate my birthday tonight. They have preplanned, prepared and invited family and friends to come together and lift me up on this calendar day; the day I came into the world. Yet, I feel like it is just like … Continue reading Just Another Day

Integrity Is Relative

The do-gooders; those who are morally upright. There are so many different perceptions one may have when taking a look at them. I often wonder what drives, or why one is driven, to be a stand up citizen. Outside looking in, we observe the front that is put on by others. Over time, we may get to see the true nature of those whom we … Continue reading Integrity Is Relative

Entertain Me, O Lord

Friday nights were filled with popcorn, a beverage and a series of television programs on a national broadcasting station, titled, “TGIF.” When I was a kid, my friends and family would huddle around the few sitcoms that were broadcasted during the Friday night lineup. We would enjoy the innocent laughs as we watched and listened to the antics of the actors and actresses. We all … Continue reading Entertain Me, O Lord

Fear Not (Part 3)

As I viewed myself and came to the conclusion of never being able to stop sinning, all the while knowing that it is impossible to stop, the uneasiness lifted. The lashes I was left scarred with from the whipping I had encountered within religion were just reminders of a once, very unhealthy relationship. The reasoning I was deciphering God with shifted within me. A very … Continue reading Fear Not (Part 3)