Dilapidated

I sometimes wonder why I am still standing. There is a word I had written on a familiar wall many years ago. The word, “Why” was running through my mind as I stood in a stairwell, staring into the void of my heart. In between a break-up with a woman I had been engaged to and a girl I had nothing in common with, I … Continue reading Dilapidated

Surpassed Understanding

Yesterday morning, I read the following: The peace of God: This is the peace spoken of in Philippians 4:7. It is beyond “all mind”; that is, beyond our power of thinking. “What is God’s peace? The unruffled serenity of the infinitely-happy God, the eternal composure of the absolutely well-contented God.” (Spurgeon) Which surpasses all understanding: It isn’t that it is senseless and therefore impossible to … Continue reading Surpassed Understanding

A Talking Love

It’s very difficult for me to really trust someone to the point of being able to fully share my heartaches. There are things that I am consumed with that only a select few and the Lord know about. Yesterday, I was able to give away some of those things that have been weighing on my heart. My beloved wife and I had a few minutes … Continue reading A Talking Love

My Faith Made Me Crazy

There was much to repent of. A time, not long ago, which laid the truth of my life out before me, exposing the very real and very factual ways of who I was, had me on my knees and begging for forgiveness. It had me killing myself. Each morning, I would wake up to another day of inadequacies. Another day of feeling like I was … Continue reading My Faith Made Me Crazy

For The Love Of Lust

“For the love of God, I am doing what I should do. I am reading His Word, listening to His Spirit, going to church on Sundays, and when Wednesdays come, I’ll be there. I’m doing it right.” Is that so? What about the constant lusts? Looking at all of those women on the porn site while your wife is away. The gambling habit that leaves … Continue reading For The Love Of Lust

Just Another Day

Today, I am turning another year older. Yay, me…I guess? My family has made arrangements for they and I to go to a local restaurant and celebrate my birthday tonight. They have preplanned, prepared and invited family and friends to come together and lift me up on this calendar day; the day I came into the world. Yet, I feel like it is just like … Continue reading Just Another Day

Integrity Is Relative

The do-gooders; those who are morally upright. There are so many different perceptions one may have when taking a look at them. I often wonder what drives, or why one is driven, to be a stand up citizen. Outside looking in, we observe the front that is put on by others. Over time, we may get to see the true nature of those whom we … Continue reading Integrity Is Relative