Becoming

What a difference it makes to wake up with an attitude of gratitude. I had shared a caption on social media yesterday that reads, “Don’t wait for things to get better. Life will always be complicated. Learn to be happy right now, otherwise you’ll run out of time.” As I’m waking up this morning, I am taking the time to remember the truth of these … Continue reading Becoming

Choose This Day…

The time is now to accept what is true but to not stay there if it is harming you Time is not promised and the days are only so long Take the time within this day to recognize what is wrong How to know what is right is evaluating what is real the things that are your true essence are not the emotions that you … Continue reading Choose This Day…

In The Face Of Fear

Why do some heal while others never learn? Why do some desire change while others ignore concern? Is it a lack of confidence or a comfort they enjoy? Do they happily welcome the sadness that will ultimately destroy? How long must one go on before change becomes a need? Is fear the underlying issue that takes a willing lead? Do they say, “Go ahead… I’m … Continue reading In The Face Of Fear

Mental Suicide

Those thoughts which bring us down; the things that we tend to dwell on that leave us in a state of devastation. These types of thoughts are so incredibly familiar to me. Throughout my life, I’ve had so much negative influence, so many different pulls and pushes that have left me curled up into a ball, balling like a baby, a ton of self-induced affliction … Continue reading Mental Suicide

Digging Our Own Hole

The habit of dwelling on the negatives was a daily necessity; an absolute need. For the great majority of my life, I had to remain focused on the limitations. If any sort of possibility presented itself, I would quickly shoot it down. I sit this morning and remember a time in my personal life when my self-esteem had me in the clinches of shame. The … Continue reading Digging Our Own Hole

One Way Out

Sometimes, the way I approach difficult tasks, especially those which demand a change in my thinking, leaves me in a state of uneasiness. There has been many challenges in the ways I have been developing. Patience. Kindness. Grace. Love. Gentleness. All of these things, as well as many others, seem to be getting easier as time passes. Although, the challenges have had their share of … Continue reading One Way Out

“Life just sucks” – My Journey

A previous writing of mine. Not that I feel that life sucks right now, but things sometimes change, making life a drag. The post is for the broken. It is for those who are at a point in their lives where affliction has taken control. Take heart: God is always with you! https://my-journey-online.com/2018/09/27/sometimes-life-just-sucks/ Continue reading “Life just sucks” – My Journey

For The Love Of Lust

“For the love of God, I am doing what I should do. I am reading His Word, listening to His Spirit, going to church on Sundays, and when Wednesdays come, I’ll be there. I’m doing it right.” Is that so? What about the constant lusts? Looking at all of those women on the porn site while your wife is away. The gambling habit that leaves … Continue reading For The Love Of Lust

From Little Love

At the age of four, something happened between my parents that left me with a life-changing, unbeknown obstacle, which would forever alter the future of my personal life. Although I had no idea how the event would cause me to think differently about my life as I would grow older, it didn’t take long to feel its effects. The divorce of my parents was not … Continue reading From Little Love

Integrity Is Relative

The do-gooders; those who are morally upright. There are so many different perceptions one may have when taking a look at them. I often wonder what drives, or why one is driven, to be a stand up citizen. Outside looking in, we observe the front that is put on by others. Over time, we may get to see the true nature of those whom we … Continue reading Integrity Is Relative

A Place of Peace

This morning, I took a look at the archives of my writings. The following is the first post I ever put out there for the world to read. As I reflect back on where I’ve been, where I am now and where I would like to go, I keep Christ at center. He is the rock that I stand upon. I pray this morning that … Continue reading A Place of Peace

Humbly From Nothing

There seems to be a great emphasis on the building up of one’s own achievements in today’s society. So many times, I have seen the true pride of self glorified within the words and actions of others. Today, I am focusing on the harm of such ways. Before I get too deep, I would like to say a couple of things. First, I am not … Continue reading Humbly From Nothing

What We Are Owed

“But I’m entitled!!” Have you ever heard someone say this when it was clearly not true? It may not have been with these exact words, but the statement, or focus, was based upon their self-importance? I think I have not only heard it, but have also thought and said it at the most inappropriate times. There is currently a little boy who believes the entire … Continue reading What We Are Owed

The Harboring

A young man walked into a bad situation one afternoon as he was confronted with an item found within the pocket of his pants. His grandmother was emptying the pockets before placing the pants in the washer. The item was used for something illegal. The young man’s grandfather waited until the boy had woken up from another night of partying before asking about the item. … Continue reading The Harboring

Problems With No Solution

Do you ever feel as though the problem that you have is, ‘just the way it is?’ I used to have a strong desire to stay within my box. Like some kind of caged animal that would retreat when a threat would arise. If I wandered outside of my comfort zone, the challenge would be seen as an obstacle, and the way through it was … Continue reading Problems With No Solution

As Far As The East Is From The West

The many things that we believe about ourselves and the world can limit the fullness of the Lord within us. I was attending a recovery program for a few months. The title, “Celebrate Recovery” was something I had not known as I was brought to the door of the meeting by a man I had gone to junior high school with. Jerry and I were … Continue reading As Far As The East Is From The West

Recovery Programs: Heresy, Idolatry and Lies

I had an experience at a secular A.A. meeting that truly worried me. When reciting the so-called ‘serenity prayer’ during the end of the meeting, I sensed a very evil presence. I now know that it was because of the false gods being glorified within the large group. I actually sensed the evil within the joined-hand circle. It is the second time I have sensed … Continue reading Recovery Programs: Heresy, Idolatry and Lies

Do You See What I See?

We have a lot to observe when we look at ourselves in the mirror. The physical appearance is the first thing we see, and we all have our ways of decorating the surface. We also have an inward appearance that we see. How do we ourselves inwardly? First impressions seem to be important to most. We all put on our attire, fix ourselves as we … Continue reading Do You See What I See?

Living A Lie

At one time within my personal life, lies were just another part of who I was. It was not a big deal to lie to my parents. It was no problem to lie to cover up something that I was doing which directly broke a rule, a law or a moral standard. If I could get away with lying and pulling through with no consequence, … Continue reading Living A Lie

People Change When They Are Ready

Myself, and numerous people that I am acquainted with have gone through many changes. I ran into a guy the other day at a family get-together. We have known each other for quite some time, and we have known about each other’s substance abuse habits. Former, and current. It was a sad day to see and hear the guy drink too much and talk about … Continue reading People Change When They Are Ready

Either / Or

I could be down about the dreadful realness of my life that is always there. I am the last of my family. I have no brothers or sisters and no biological children. Which is probably a good thing, knowing how mentally unstable my father’s family has been. So, the Brewster name is finished here. I won’t be spending Christmas with either one of my parents. … Continue reading Either / Or

Time For Me

I noticed this morning, like many other mornings and days I have had throughout my life, that I was starting to wander. My thoughts were taking me to places that were not of peace. It has taken me many years to undo those patterns within my mind that have done nothing but destroy me not only mentally, but physically. In turn, my gratitude and willingness … Continue reading Time For Me

With No Desire To Change

“How’s that working for ya?” Doctor Phillip McGraw, an American television personality, author, psychologist, and the host of the television show Dr. Phil, has used this quote within his program many times throughout its debut in 2002. Although I have only watched the program a few times, the phrase has stuck with me. This program usually has families that have faced some sort of turmoil … Continue reading With No Desire To Change

A Place of Peace

Today I woke up. Praise God for another day. It is no surprise to me that I have been going through difficult times lately. I don’t mean in the material world. My life is very blessed with the things that I need. I work hard for what I have. What I mean by difficult times is what is going on within me. I have been … Continue reading A Place of Peace