Change

Before light, my mother would wake me on school days. After the alarm wouldn’t manage to budge me from my coma, due to the evening of drugs and alcohol the night before, her persistent voice would fill my room. I recall the usual routine of sitting at the sofa with the candy dish that I used as an ashtray, while flicking my ashes from the … Continue reading Change

In Unison

In my world, a calm approach is sometimes the wrong approach. I was thankful Wednesday for the humbling sting of events prior to my car breaking down. It sometimes seems like when it rains it pours, as the saying goes. Several setbacks were a subtle setup for Wednesday morning’s much needed walk in the fresh air. Before heading into work, I took a stroll around … Continue reading In Unison

The Clenching

How truly hard it is to genuinely be a kind man. I work with a mix of personalities, mostly men. Being a full-time worker, I end up spending more time with them than I do my own family. It is sometimes very hard to not focus upon errors that occur. Our jobs are intricate, and they are expected to be conducted in a harmonious manor … Continue reading The Clenching

Burned Alive

It’s not about the things in them you hate, it’s about the things in you that obliterate. You longed to fix everyone outside, as you took a look at yourself and lied. It’s much easier for you to blame, than to see what’s truly fueling hate’s flame. Everyone walked away after trying, but you just wouldn’t listen…. Now, you’re dying. You played with the fire … Continue reading Burned Alive

Take THIS Away…

Discipline — it’s sometimes impossible. “But, with God, all things are possible!” I can hear it now. Someone is saying it as they read my opening sentence. And, I’m not disagreeing. There are many things in the life of all of us that we — with all of the discipline we can try to marshal — absolutely cannot put down. What’s yours? My wife has … Continue reading Take THIS Away…

Is That Right?

Misinterpreted words can make or break the man. They can plant their feet on solid ground, or disturb the places where they stand.   Do we spend more time communicating, or analyzing limited text? Do we know what our neighbor is trying to say if we don’t hear what is next?   We assume based on the limited and things get in the way, like … Continue reading Is That Right?

Are You Righteous?

I threw out all of the past bitterness and tried to love again. Without getting into much detail, I will tell you a bit about my recent, personal experience with forgiveness. It truly has taken me a long time to learn how to knock down a few barriers; those walls that have been built up over my life. So many different avenues that led me … Continue reading Are You Righteous?

Dilapidated

I sometimes wonder why I am still standing. There is a word I had written on a familiar wall many years ago. The word, “Why” was running through my mind as I stood in a stairwell, staring into the void of my heart. In between a break-up with a woman I had been engaged to and a girl I had nothing in common with, I … Continue reading Dilapidated

One Way Out

Sometimes, the way I approach difficult tasks, especially those which demand a change in my thinking, leaves me in a state of uneasiness. There has been many challenges in the ways I have been developing. Patience. Kindness. Grace. Love. Gentleness. All of these things, as well as many others, seem to be getting easier as time passes. Although, the challenges have had their share of … Continue reading One Way Out

What The Morning Holds

I remember a time when the light of day was a burden. A completely dreadful time. It was the beginning of another day of worries, anxieties, worthlessness and hopelessness. Each time I would rise in the morning began a course that ushered in the nightmarish realities of my existence. I had to take action. Their is a quote from a fictional character in a movie, … Continue reading What The Morning Holds

Remnants

When my father died, my family and I went to his place and took what we wanted. There were many things that were selected by myself and my half brother and sister. We took a look around our father’s place and brought the things that we deemed as valuable back to our own homes. I took all of my dad’s tools. Within the collection, there … Continue reading Remnants

For The Love Of Lust

“For the love of God, I am doing what I should do. I am reading His Word, listening to His Spirit, going to church on Sundays, and when Wednesdays come, I’ll be there. I’m doing it right.” Is that so? What about the constant lusts? Looking at all of those women on the porn site while your wife is away. The gambling habit that leaves … Continue reading For The Love Of Lust

From Little Love

At the age of four, something happened between my parents that left me with a life-changing, unbeknown obstacle, which would forever alter the future of my personal life. Although I had no idea how the event would cause me to think differently about my life as I would grow older, it didn’t take long to feel its effects. The divorce of my parents was not … Continue reading From Little Love

Prideful Preaching

How many times have you been ridiculed, or made to feel ashamed of yourself, by others who preach the Gospel? It seems to be very common within the Church these days. Are you spreading the correction of God, incorrectly? The following is a writing from Kevin DeYoung. Are Christians Meant to Feel Guilty All the Time? How do we feel guilty? Let me count the … Continue reading Prideful Preaching

Paid For What?

What ever happened to working as if one is working for the Lord? Colossians 3:22-24 NIV 22 Slaves, obey your earthly masters in everything; and do it, not only when their eye is on you and to curry their favor, but with sincerity of heart and reverence for the Lord. 23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the … Continue reading Paid For What?

A Beating Heart

I have been diagnosed with prehypertension blood pressure, and now have to take a mild medication for it. As I woke this morning, I was thinking about all of the many reasons why this heart of mine has reaped the consequences of what has been sown. I am thinking about all of the many beats, and beatings, it has taken. I remember, from a very … Continue reading A Beating Heart

Hidden Behind Our Words

I am a very tall and very slender man. I have a partial finger, due to the fact of it being accidently cut off during a knife fight with my grandpa. I am a professional bricklayer. My left eye is not the same color as the right. Yep, that’s me! Umm, no. No, it isn’t. As a blogger, I have the opportunity to place words … Continue reading Hidden Behind Our Words

Of An Appetite Or Desire

I am a hungry dude! I sometimes feel as though I didn’t eat anything even after having a full plate of food. My diet has really changed within the last several years, and my exercise routine has as well. I blame the change in metabolism for my constant hunger. Going from pizza and fried chicken to baked chicken and salads has a way of disappointing, … Continue reading Of An Appetite Or Desire

Finding Our Reasons Not To Love

The tendency to be selfish is easier for some than it is for others. I had a friend who began working at the same place I had. We didn’t really have anything in common, but we did share the faith in Christ. I suppose that was the beginning of our short time of friendship and fellowship. It was also a great opportunity to share Christ … Continue reading Finding Our Reasons Not To Love

Fatigue: An Invitation For The Enemy

Oh, the frustration within the tired mind. The environment, diet, chemical balance within the brain and body, sleep deprivation, physical fatigue, caffeine consumption, thought processes and patterns. Medications. Drugs. Poisons. So many things beat us down. The energy that we need in order to respond to stimuli is absent, making it a bit harder to first consider those things that we would normally exude when … Continue reading Fatigue: An Invitation For The Enemy

Mr. Positivity

I have an acquaintance who had sent a video link to my phone. The short five-minute sketch was performed by a well-known comedian. The guy was answering the door for trick-or-treaters, saying, as well as doing very raunchy things. The humor was something that I would have thoroughly enjoyed in past years, but I watched about two minutes of it and completely lost interest. It … Continue reading Mr. Positivity

Silently Watching

I had to take a break from myself today. The past day has been a much-needed break from the emotional havoc that I’ve been so attached to lately. The attachment to things: uneasiness, tension, stress, anxiety, anger and so on. All of those things that my personal convictions have allowed me to handle with a bit more attentiveness, made possible with the willingness to seek … Continue reading Silently Watching

What Is Love, Father?

Some people have a hard time showing, giving and receiving love. Myself and my late father being two of them. My childhood mainly consisted of many of the ugly things in life. Insecurities. Anxiety. Uncertainty. Fear. Many negatives. It was truly through those times of my youth that shaped me into the man I would end up being. It was through those experiences I became … Continue reading What Is Love, Father?

For The Good Of Those Who Love Him

I had a really bad experience this morning that brought me to a great blessing. It inspired me to share this. God will sometimes allow a trial in order for a blessing to unfold. Written by Chris Russell One of the most encouraging verses in the entire Bible is found in Paul’s letter to the Christians living in extreme persecution in the city of ancient … Continue reading For The Good Of Those Who Love Him

The New Cocaine

Facebook. Fortnite. Call of Duty. Twitter. WordPress. Snapchat. We can add to the growing list of things that are taking over the world in which we live. Alcohol. Sex. Music. Sports. Fashion and vanity. The money chase. The importance of status. The titles we place upon ourselves through education, or by means of rank within our careers. The need to be popular. The latest gadget … Continue reading The New Cocaine

How Does God Validate Us?

The following is a compilation of writing from Mark Carpenter To validate something is to “give official sanction, confirmation, or approval to it.” What makes you feel like you have value and worth? We are designed to want validation, the feeling of significance. The problem is that we try to get validation from what we think we can control or mange. We avoid mystery and … Continue reading How Does God Validate Us?

Emphasizing The Necessity of Christ

Pinned to my taskbar was a link to the following article. It must have had an importance somewhere along the way for me to pin it within sight for later reference. The message is so incredibly prevalent within each day. The holiday my family and I will celebrate today is absolutely unprofitable, for me, unless I genuinely embrace the Lord in His fullness of spiritual … Continue reading Emphasizing The Necessity of Christ

Stillness Lies Ahead

This message from Paul to Philippi is what I had read this morning. 4 Rejoice in the LORD always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The LORD is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, … Continue reading Stillness Lies Ahead

The Damage Done

The Grand Canyon in the northwestern part of Arizona was formed by the Colorado River. Over time, the huge gorge was carved by the movement of water. The steep-sided canyon is over a mile deep and up to eighteen miles wide. It is quite a vast place. That river had a lot of time to cut so deeply. The constant flow and its persistence has … Continue reading The Damage Done

I’m Tired…

You sure can’t fix others. There has been an ongoing struggle between myself and a loved one that I have been writing about lately. Once again, we are at a standstill. Joe and I, not the real name of the person but what I will call them, have been fighting a serious battle. Long story short, Joe and I have a hard time letting things … Continue reading I’m Tired…

“I’m Not Changing!!”

“Not listening.” Something I have struggled with throughout my life. Purposely shutting my ears off. Shutting people out. Not wanting to hear the other person. As I’m growing older, I find myself at times wandering off as I’m listening to others speak. My brain begins to focus on a thought and I totally miss what I was trying to hear. I need to work on … Continue reading “I’m Not Changing!!”

The Opposing Self

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy … Continue reading The Opposing Self

My Choice…

I scribbled a short note to myself and placed it on the instrument panel in my car several months ago. I see it nearly everyday. I need it daily. Sometimes thoughts take me to places far from remaining in a good place. I pray this morning that you also remain at peace, in love, in a similar “good place” with God, yourself and others. Continue reading My Choice…

Disarray

The man or woman with a smile that can light up a room, instantly putting a smile on everyone who is within sight of it. That person who always has a witty joke to share. The guy who goes into the soup kitchen on Saturday to help feed the homeless. A woman whose life revolves around making sure her children have everything they need in … Continue reading Disarray

3.2.1. Quote Me Challenge!

I want to thank my brother in Christ Ryan Callahan at authorryanc.com for choosing me to participate in the 3.2.1. Quote Me Challenge. Check out his encouraging blog and be blessed! His challenge word for me is: Peace   The Rules Of This Challenge Are As Follows: Thank the Selector Post 2 quotes for the dedicated topic of the day Select 3 bloggers to take … Continue reading 3.2.1. Quote Me Challenge!

What We Feed Ourselves

Our selfishness is our demise. This morning I was on the deteriorating social networking site called Facebook. In my experience, the world is becoming more and more consumed by the opposite of selflessness, and the occasional scrolls through the feed on the site are often a reminder. Sure, there are many good things about the site. We can keep up with distant family, share in … Continue reading What We Feed Ourselves

Father Knows Best

I do wish that I could write about my father in a way that praises him for being a more loving one. My dad was a very private man as I was growing up. He never wanted to spend his time with me. He would get me set up with a project, only after my mother had suggested it, and then go about his business. … Continue reading Father Knows Best

The Atrocities Of Our Pride

Something really spoke to me this morning. I thought I would take a few minutes to write about something that I find within myself, and maybe you do too? That nasty thing that God hates; Pride. It may be a little harsh to say that God hates pride. I’m only going there because it’s evident that He most certainly wasn’t okay with it when He … Continue reading The Atrocities Of Our Pride

The Gift Of Gratitude

My mother and I lived in a little trailer several miles from the city. We had lived several places within the city before moving to the trailer park. It was a place that was desolate to me. I was about fifteen years old, and depression was becoming a pretty familiar friend at that time. I would spend a lot of my time in my bedroom. … Continue reading The Gift Of Gratitude

My Morning Cup

Mornings are so very important. Before my family wakes, I spend my quiet time at the kitchen bar. There was a time when I would rise for the day and go straight to the shower. Those days, before I had met coffee. I would do everything in a rush in the morning. Shower, get ready, out the door with a daily routine of fast food … Continue reading My Morning Cup

We Follow People Before Jesus

Let’s face it. We follow a lot of people. Where should I start? This is not a bashing session. It is just how I see the world through my eyes as I walk with Him. He has revealed many things that have shown me just how far the devil can go in his attempt to take our eyes off of Jesus, and how he does … Continue reading We Follow People Before Jesus

Check Yourself

Idols. We all have them. Social media, food, drink, music, sex, money, work, ministry, or ourself. There are many popular things of the world that we desperately try to convince ourselves, and others, of being “okay” within the eyes of the Lord. The desires of the flesh. Not of Spirit. As Christ followers, we are called to continuously keep our hearts in check, moving further … Continue reading Check Yourself

Nothing In This World Lasts Forever

After performing a quick life expectancy Google search, Wikipedia claims that the average American man is expected to live 76.9 years. This claim has shown me that my life is passed the halfway mark. Although the statistics show this, no one can say for sure how long any of us will live. Some of the earliest memories that I have are of my mothers’ parents … Continue reading Nothing In This World Lasts Forever