Wake

In a morning when the sun has reached the horizon colors play The dance begins Gracefully passing its majesty wakes the cloud Amber and Opal of our atmosphere Purple haze beyond the cloud I’m near All gives way to the brightening morn Singing songs of birds adorn Wake us and accompany our day distant one Give life to all that is near once again   Continue reading Wake

Perfectly Imbalanced

At 3 a.m., I sit and truly wonder why I do some of the things that I do. After a long work week, and after only about four hours of sleep last night, I woke to begin enjoying the rest. Weekends are my time to reset, refuel and actually be okay with not staying busy. Being “okay” with the rest is something that took a … Continue reading Perfectly Imbalanced

I Sometimes Wonder…

What makes us who we are?   Is it the outward appearance? Is it the display for the rest — varying in ways that are specifically crafted for each one we meet? Is it the talk and the walk — the good show we can knock out of the park? Is it the experience? The knocks? The comforts of love found within the moments of … Continue reading I Sometimes Wonder…

My Lord, My Friend

Rest assured when facing a trial that God is with you even while the people aren’t there when you need them most The one’s who’d promised would rather host their own importance Entertaining ego They never call or stop in They have reasons you know But God is there always and He knows all the pain that you’ve carried along as you’ve received their disdain … Continue reading My Lord, My Friend

Psalm 73:26

When you are blessed, the world seems at ease, and when you are not, the stressors increase. Wonderful life when things are okay, but a punch in the gut begins slow decay. Count all your blessings… SHUT UP! You’re not me! The neighbor you love is blind and can’t see how the pain is now growing inward — and quick. They offer a suggestion, but … Continue reading Psalm 73:26

Nothing Left

The boy of the past who lived in a home where comforts were seldom and while left alone he’d cry for his mother who stayed out all night after her shift she’d head for the light of houses tucked away in the cities and towns to smoke up her poison and then run around a little bit longer to hit up the bars laughing and … Continue reading Nothing Left

When Will You Manage?

Management is a great and necessary thing. I work for a fairly small company, and within that company, there are individuals who hold managerial positions. They have certain tasks to perform, people to supervise and decisions to make. They are the overseers of the people that hold positions in certain departments. These individuals have been appointed because they have been considered as qualified for the … Continue reading When Will You Manage?

If I May?

May I interrupt your constant need to dwell upon the pain Yes, your misery loves the company please don’t tell me again   You enjoy the things of sorrow I know… you’ve said it loud and clear Tell me something else today something you don’t want to hear   I’ll open the door of the prison that is nothing but a space a place inside … Continue reading If I May?

What The Morning Holds

I remember a time when the light of day was a burden. A completely dreadful time. It was the beginning of another day of worries, anxieties, worthlessness and hopelessness. Each time I would rise in the morning began a course that ushered in the nightmarish realities of my existence. I had to take action. Their is a quote from a fictional character in a movie, … Continue reading What The Morning Holds

Remnants

When my father died, my family and I went to his place and took what we wanted. There were many things that were selected by myself and my half brother and sister. We took a look around our father’s place and brought the things that we deemed as valuable back to our own homes. I took all of my dad’s tools. Within the collection, there … Continue reading Remnants

Throwing Stones

From Our Daily Bread devotional. We should all be laying our stones down… By Alyson Kieda “Lisa felt no sympathy for those who cheated on their spouse . . . until she found herself deeply unsatisfied with her marriage and struggling to resist a dangerous attraction. That painful experience helped her gain a new compassion for others and greater understanding of Christ’s words: “Let any … Continue reading Throwing Stones

A Refusal To Move

There are times when idleness within my life can become very destructive. It’s an ongoing battle I’ve dealt with for a great portion of my adult life. The following link is titled, Here Is Why Your Anxiety Is Getting Worse. I found it to be a great source of information, especially since I have an ongoing tendency to practice some of the patterns and bad … Continue reading A Refusal To Move

His Hands

There is a certain feel when it comes to being up early and not having to rush to do anything. No work must be performed. No thoughts of what I have to do within the day ahead. Nothing to do but listen to the rain on the tin roof along the back partial of our home as the birds sing, enjoying their free bath. Nothing … Continue reading His Hands

Don’t Give Up

The following is an excerpt from the Christian-based book: Overcoming Anxiety, Worry And Fear by Dr. Gregory L. Jantz and Ann Mc Murray. If you suffer from any of the three, or a combination of, I highly recommend the book. It is a book I have referenced, recommended and gifted for the past three years. It is a great aid in learning how to overcome … Continue reading Don’t Give Up

Fatigue: An Invitation For The Enemy

Oh, the frustration within the tired mind. The environment, diet, chemical balance within the brain and body, sleep deprivation, physical fatigue, caffeine consumption, thought processes and patterns. Medications. Drugs. Poisons. So many things beat us down. The energy that we need in order to respond to stimuli is absent, making it a bit harder to first consider those things that we would normally exude when … Continue reading Fatigue: An Invitation For The Enemy

A Dreamlike State

Acceptance of things that are not real. A nonsensical, delusional way of viewing the world. I woke this morning to an alarm which sounded at 4:20 A.M. My wife had been up for a few minutes prior and quickly cracked a joke, saying, “Is it time for you to smoke a joint?” It took me a minute to realize what she had meant, but the … Continue reading A Dreamlike State

As Far As The East Is From The West

The many things that we believe about ourselves and the world can limit the fullness of the Lord within us. I was attending a recovery program for a few months. The title, “Celebrate Recovery” was something I had not known as I was brought to the door of the meeting by a man I had gone to junior high school with. Jerry and I were … Continue reading As Far As The East Is From The West

Yes, You Are Okay

You CAN be helped. The following is a writing from Denise Griswold. Lord knows the mind is vulnerable, but He has placed individuals here to help us understand it. You can change, and you can succeed. Through the strength of the Lord and a desire to get better, treatment has turned my life around. You too can live a better life! Believe! Have a blessed … Continue reading Yes, You Are Okay

Recovery Programs: Heresy, Idolatry and Lies

I had an experience at a secular A.A. meeting that truly worried me. When reciting the so-called ‘serenity prayer’ during the end of the meeting, I sensed a very evil presence. I now know that it was because of the false gods being glorified within the large group. I actually sensed the evil within the joined-hand circle. It is the second time I have sensed … Continue reading Recovery Programs: Heresy, Idolatry and Lies

People Change When They Are Ready

Myself, and numerous people that I am acquainted with have gone through many changes. I ran into a guy the other day at a family get-together. We have known each other for quite some time, and we have known about each other’s substance abuse habits. Former, and current. It was a sad day to see and hear the guy drink too much and talk about … Continue reading People Change When They Are Ready

What We Fail To See

I take the back roads on my commute to work at times. I see what may have been missed. Nature, in its natural state. The sunrise, the life that thrives and the presence of God. We can enjoy the life in a different way, instead of just the hustling and bustling way, if we stop to do so… Maybe we all just need a short … Continue reading What We Fail To See

What, Me Worry?

Several things that could easily steal my joy of this life are currently hanging over our household. Serious, potentially life-changing issues. I am constantly reassuring my wife that everything is going to be okay, but she still worries. That is just how she is. I actually admire that about her. She has a very caring heart and the worry is for the benefit of her … Continue reading What, Me Worry?

I’m Tired…

You sure can’t fix others. There has been an ongoing struggle between myself and a loved one that I have been writing about lately. Once again, we are at a standstill. Joe and I, not the real name of the person but what I will call them, have been fighting a serious battle. Long story short, Joe and I have a hard time letting things … Continue reading I’m Tired…

“I’m Not Changing!!”

“Not listening.” Something I have struggled with throughout my life. Purposely shutting my ears off. Shutting people out. Not wanting to hear the other person. As I’m growing older, I find myself at times wandering off as I’m listening to others speak. My brain begins to focus on a thought and I totally miss what I was trying to hear. I need to work on … Continue reading “I’m Not Changing!!”

The Opposing Self

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy … Continue reading The Opposing Self

The Laws Of Love

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.  -Galatians 5:22-23. It has been such a life-changing period of time for my family and I throughout the last year. It is truly amazing how simply choosing a different attitude can transform one into a totally different individual. My part in the … Continue reading The Laws Of Love

Presently Within

If you have been reading my posts lately, you have seen the writings about the therapy sessions I have been attending with a loved one. We had another session this past Thursday. I would like to share some key lessons we both have learned within our time together. For anonymity purposes, I will only refer to the person as my loved one. My loved one … Continue reading Presently Within