Of An Appetite Or Desire

I am a hungry dude! I sometimes feel as though I didn’t eat anything even after having a full plate of food. My diet has really changed within the last several years, and my exercise routine has as well. I blame the change in metabolism for my constant hunger. Going from pizza and fried chicken to baked chicken and salads has a way of disappointing, … Continue reading Of An Appetite Or Desire

Grieving Sucks

Funerals have an unfortunate way of pulling families together. Many times the extended family attends the viewing, paying their respects and offering condolences. My late father’s death brought a few faces out of hiding. My dad’s cousin, which would be my second cousin, was a face I had not seen in over twenty years. He and I were once palling around on a fairly regular … Continue reading Grieving Sucks

Deep, Abiding, Ineffable, Love — His Eye Is On The Sparrow

If “God is love,” well ok, then! But it must be a love we as human beings can barely comprehend. We have nothing in experience to compare it to. It must certainly be a deeper, wider, higher, sacrificial, stubborn, consistent, unconditional, unwavering, and committed love than anything we have experienced or known. We are not […] via Deep, Abiding, Ineffable, Love — His Eye Is On … Continue reading Deep, Abiding, Ineffable, Love — His Eye Is On The Sparrow

“My Guilt Trip, Filled With Fear And Shame, Will Get You To Heaven.”

A shaming guilt once reached into the depths of my conscience as I was trying so hard to please the Lord. A new-found faith in the God I had known very little about was the beginning of a shaming, self-reproaching, wounding and grievous series of events. God of love was not a good description for Him. Control over an existence, one that He had created, … Continue reading “My Guilt Trip, Filled With Fear And Shame, Will Get You To Heaven.”

Finding Our Reasons Not To Love

The tendency to be selfish is easier for some than it is for others. I had a friend who began working at the same place I had. We didn’t really have anything in common, but we did share the faith in Christ. I suppose that was the beginning of our short time of friendship and fellowship. It was also a great opportunity to share Christ … Continue reading Finding Our Reasons Not To Love

Nothing In This World Lasts Forever

It is currently seventeen degrees Fahrenheit outside, and I suspect it feels much colder than that when the wind blows. I’m sitting in front of a little space heater providing comfort for my tired feet. My family is sleeping in our warm home. The hot coffee warms my body. The electric light is dim, yet it provides a nice ambiance for early morning. Somewhere outside, … Continue reading Nothing In This World Lasts Forever

When I Compare Myself To Others (Part 3)

The introduction to meth was not something that I really enjoyed, but it was the new habit. On top of the everyday pot and cigarette habit, I had to have a little corner of a sandwich baggie filled with chemicals. It was the necessary way to go about the day because not having it meant withdrawal and hard crashes. I would go for days at … Continue reading When I Compare Myself To Others (Part 3)