“I don’t understand the darkness” is a statement someone had made regarding my chosen style of writing. Throughout the past few years on WordPress, I have poured myself out through text. As a helpful tool I had used while evaluating my personal cognitive complexity, writing later evolved into a passion. I began to write of experiences, thoughts, my walk with God, as well as poems … Continue reading Where Darkness Lies
Battling the “ups and downs” of this life of mine can sometimes be an all out war. When the mood disorder that I’ve always had trouble balancing rears its ugly head–pulling in every direction, with the corruption of its character having the upper hand, I sometimes become engulfed within a funk with no real reasoning behind it. I’ll then attempt to find “reasons” for the … Continue reading Trying To Forget
I continuously read a lot of posts about the God of Christianity, and it continues to cause me to be uncomfortable, at times. So many times I ask myself the question: “How do they know?” I understand we can draw our conclusions from what we read in the Bible, and that some have the revelation of Holy Spirit in their interpretation (SOME), but seriously… Why … Continue reading Prophet Watch…?
These last few days have been pretty strange. I can’t really put my finger on it, but the atmosphere has a certain feel to it that is not the usual here in my personal space. It could be the weather that has been unseasonably warm for this time of year, but I think it goes much deeper than that. It may be that I am … Continue reading Unsettled
Christmas time is upon us, and I have been reading the usual Christian posts: the real reason for the season, the Pagan roots of the holiday, the reasons why we should or shouldn’t celebrate, Scripture quotes. The usual. I have been thinking about what the true meaning of Christmas has become to me while being up at this very unusual hour of the morning. I … Continue reading What We Give
Oh no! A Christian writing about “self”! He must be a fake?! We’re supposed to deny ourselves (Matt. 16:24)!! HA! Okay, so the title of my post this morning may look a little self-centered and deceiving. Allow me a few minutes to explain? First and foremost, this is my personal experience. I am not here to preach, argue or correct, and I won’t discuss apologetics. … Continue reading Growing Within The Power Within Yourself
I passionately choose to discuss the subject of divisions within His Church. The last few posts I have written, as well as several prior, attest to this. For the last couple of days, I have chosen to not put anything into word and just observe what unfolds. Sometimes, too much focus upon one subject can obscure a vision that is waiting to be seen. It … Continue reading Collaborate
I was listening to the lyrics of a song when I began to see a great truth within everyone. This “truth” is the realities of our individual experiences: Everything that we have been through and have experienced with our senses. The way we have seen our individual worlds and all that we have become, up until this very moment. Our reality; what is real, solely, … Continue reading Gab and Jab
I find myself walking away, pretty often these days, from the madness others create in my personal malaise. Sometimes, the ways of others pulls me down to a familiar land. A place where I once walked in ways I can no longer stand. They call me to come along with them; to embark in ways of old. They say, “for old times’ sake,” but misery … Continue reading Through The Thorn
My dad has been gone for all of these days and I am seeing him now in many new ways I see my father in reflections and behind the closed doors I see him on the streets and in empty drawers He drove by me one day but it wasn’t him Perhaps he waved at me with my thoughts at whim I heard his voice … Continue reading The Resonance Of His Voice
Today, I am turning another year older. Yay, me…I guess? My family has made arrangements for they and I to go to a local restaurant and celebrate my birthday tonight. They have preplanned, prepared and invited family and friends to come together and lift me up on this calendar day; the day I came into the world. Yet, I feel like it is just like … Continue reading Just Another Day
My personal life has been nothing short of dangerous. From the beginning, the mess my parents had caused- the ongoing physical and mental abuse between themselves while I sat helplessly on the sidelines, with no comprehension of why it was taking place- set me up for a dysfunctional life that is still, at times, resonating throughout my current days. Forty years later. Times, much like … Continue reading Valor
Funerals have an unfortunate way of pulling families together. Many times the extended family attends the viewing, paying their respects and offering condolences. My late father’s death brought a few faces out of hiding. My dad’s cousin, which would be my second cousin, was a face I had not seen in over twenty years. He and I were once palling around on a fairly regular … Continue reading Grieving Sucks
Facebook. Fortnite. Call of Duty. Twitter. WordPress. Snapchat. We can add to the growing list of things that are taking over the world in which we live. Alcohol. Sex. Music. Sports. Fashion and vanity. The money chase. The importance of status. The titles we place upon ourselves through education, or by means of rank within our careers. The need to be popular. The latest gadget … Continue reading The New Cocaine
The Grand Canyon in the northwestern part of Arizona was formed by the Colorado River. Over time, the huge gorge was carved by the movement of water. The steep-sided canyon is over a mile deep and up to eighteen miles wide. It is quite a vast place. That river had a lot of time to cut so deeply. The constant flow and its persistence has … Continue reading The Damage Done
The waiting game. So often we await. I’m currently waiting for a person to change. They refuse to take the steps needed to improve. I really love this person. Today, I have to set the necessary boundaries with this person. I’ve prayed about it, meditated on the ways to go about it, and I fully trust that the Lord will fix the mess. If you … Continue reading Stop Watching The Clock
The wind is blowing so hard outside this morning. I can hear the house crackling in various places. It sounds like the rushing waves of the ocean are crashing out there. A trash can is beating about the alley that runs behind our house. Our wind chime seems to be very busy. I had let my dog out and looked up to see an edge … Continue reading Is He A Brave Man?
I do wish that I could write about my father in a way that praises him for being a more loving one. My dad was a very private man as I was growing up. He never wanted to spend his time with me. He would get me set up with a project, only after my mother had suggested it, and then go about his business. … Continue reading Father Knows Best
My mother and I lived in a little trailer several miles from the city. We had lived several places within the city before moving to the trailer park. It was a place that was desolate to me. I was about fifteen years old, and depression was becoming a pretty familiar friend at that time. I would spend a lot of my time in my bedroom. … Continue reading The Gift Of Gratitude
I woke very early this morning. It usually happens following a day of heavy physical labor. Yesterday was very demanding. Although I slept very well, I was up today around 2 A.M. The beginning of this day started out with some reading. I ran across an article about the false teachers within His Church, and how the antichrist is already here in the form of … Continue reading What Happened To Our Relationship?
Several weeks ago, my family and I had taken a trip to Panama City Beach. It is a city that is located just shy of the location that hurricane Michael had torn through within the Florida panhandle. Panama City and Mexico Beach have experienced a devastating storm which has left people without power, homeless and broken. Unfortunatly, a few have also died. The Category 4 … Continue reading We Will Not Be Shaken…
My best friend came by for a visit last night. Actually, I visited him. I needed him to assist in finding something illegal. I had a dream about my deceased buddy. I woke this morning thinking about the many times my deceased loved ones have appeared within my dreams. The conversations that we share. The usual strange aspects and details of our visits. The situations. … Continue reading “Good Seeing You Too.”
Yesterday was a breakthrough. A close loved one and I have been everything but loving towards each other. The last year has brought on many different emotions that have surfaced at the worst possible times. It has definitely hindered our individual lives in various, negative ways. We have been attending therapy sessions for the past several months, and our hour together yesterday was a much … Continue reading “Could You Please Repeat That?”
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As things in my life are being dismantled, the destructive things, the things that I no longer find beneficial, I often put those things down and leave them alone. For a long time, maybe a year or so, I had a terrible habit that I truly hated. I would deliberately not purchase this habit, or engage in it. Many times… Continue reading Out Of Sight, Out Of Mind
It is getting close to Halloween. The sound of footsteps, as they crush and kick the fallen leaves, will soon fill the evening. The knocks on the door will echo throughout our home. I will soon gaze through the glass of my entryway, observing the eager youngsters who await the handouts. A partially-filled bag or pail will be presented, and the sweets will be dropped … Continue reading What I Have Allowed In
I sometimes hate weekends. My wife has a third-shift job that she works on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. My kids go to their grandparent’s house for the weekend most of the time. Saturday is a day of rest for me, and let me tell you, it is a much needed time for me. I have a very physical job, so rest is something that I … Continue reading Personal Struggles Are Sometimes Revealing, And Refining
Patience. I can truly say that I haven’t really had much of it throughout my life. Impatience was always a big part of who I was. Within the strands of my life, there have been many lessons that have led me to a better understanding of patience. I’m thinking deeply about it this morning. I believe the early childhood trauma played a part in my … Continue reading Patiently Waiting For A Brighter Day
It was early yesterday when I posted one of my short stories on WordPress. I had it all written just the way I had wanted it. I posted it, and later came back to find that it had not received one like. Later that evening, I was reading a post about ‘how to be a successful blogger.’ For a minute, I had thought to myself, … Continue reading Why Worry About Our Blogging Success?
Over the years, there have been many dreams that have left their mysterious messages embedded within my memories. I had a dream about my friend who’d passed away twelve years ago this coming September. In the dream, Metallica was coming to our city. Metallica is a heavy metal band, and back when my friend and I were at our closest, we both liked their music. … Continue reading An Unexpected Friend
A writing by Terry “Going To Church” is Not in the Bible There is nothing righteous about a building. There is also nothing righteous about a home or a living room. Most people agree that the building where people meet is not the church. It’s funny though how 99 out of 100 individuals will emphatically nod their head and say “Right, the building is not … Continue reading “How Do We Get There?”
Sometimes others just need a buddy. I have a friend who is quite a bit older than me. We have known each other for well over thirty years. When I was very young, my buddy was already an adult. He was always walking around the neighborhood, and never wandered far from his home. An accident had left him with multiple injuries to his brain and … Continue reading A Friend For Life
There is definitely a reason why kids are running our streets at night. My young teen years were absolutely great. I was always running from here to there. I had a motorized scooter that I would ride all over town. I had a great amount of freedom. Way too much. I also had every opportunity to visit many harmful environments. If I needed drugs and … Continue reading Because We Can!
I lived within a dysfunctional family. I was once engaged to a woman who had a mother with many problems. Her mom would stay with us for extended periods of time. She was addicted to opiates, and had a plastic pill container full of the daily doses of her medications. Way too many to count. I remember the Tupperware containers full of her prescriptions that … Continue reading Our Deadly Combination
My father and I have had a rocky relationship, to say the least. As I was growing up, he was not really a person who I could look at as a constant. I always felt as if I was borrowing his time. There are many things that I would love to remove from the compartments of my heart that involve the man I would … Continue reading The Context May Be Misconstrued
Wow. For the last few hours, I have been going through some of the blog posts on WP about religion/ God / Jesus / Apologetics / Calvinism / denominations, et cetera, and I must say that there are a lot of people who must be, “God Himself.” Yes, I am being blatantly sarcastic, and the basis is built upon the findings of so many claiming … Continue reading Choosing Our “Childlike Faith”